Well...I dunno how much time I have...but that is okay...anyway...so I dunno I'm super happy that me and Courtney are talking again...it is one of the best things in the world...she is one of the only people that know where I'm coming from...that is really nice...to have someone say: yeah...I know...instead: i'm sorry...I dunno what to say...anyway...so I'm here doing nothing...got all my shit straight for school...it's really nice to be able to think that everything is gonna be okay...because there is nothing else like that...I dunno...I think I need some more towels and what not..but other than that...I'm set...I mean I need some dishes but otherthan that...yeah...I mean I have everything set up...and I'm sure that the school will hook me up really nice with some aid...because I mean I'm an honest, hard working, gurl...I'm so sweet it isn't even funny...but anyway...so yeah...I mean I love the fact that I'm sure everything will be okay...I mean if you think about it...I've gotten this far...I can get farther if I just stick it out and actaully start trying harder...I'm really sick of being single and I mean I'm doing really good at trying to not crush on that one boy...I mean I kinda just got rid of him from my life...so that is a good thing...there wasn't a chance for me and him anyway...so it's already July...wow..I can't believe it...I'm gonna be 18 soon...that is just crazy...I doubt I'll get my nose done...or maybe I'll have Manda do it for me...but I dunno...I'm really scared about it...but yeah...I hope I get to go to school...I mean I'm really excited..I set back enough money for me to get my shit off layaway and some more towels...I dunno if I should buy a cheap set of dishes...shall talk to my gram tomorrow about that or uncle rog...I'm serious I have to do this...I mean it...I'm was just really confused about the whole thing for awhile...I mean wouldn't you be?? I would be...I'm not like every other person that knows everything and can just depend on people to get me what I want...I mean I can....but not really...I just can get small things...but you know...

Anyway...so school is over for me...this is always just lurking in the back of my head...sometimes I get this feeling that I'm going back...but then I realize that I'm not...and that is just somehting I have to learn to face...kinda scary and I have to learn to use the past tense in these cases and what not...but I'm sure that I'll be fine after awhile...I mean the one thing that I loved more than anything up to this point in my life came to an end...that is really scary for me...becuase I hate change a lot...and I know you all know this...huh...I dunno...I'm really just out of it...I'm really happy I'm going to the library tomorrow...everything will be okay...I know it...anyway...I'm gonn go get a new template...because I've grown not very fond of this one anymore...I just don't like it...I'm out...

Later Taters...
holliejo

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