I'm holliejo
Stefan is: It's YOU

holliejo: I love Harry Potter
It's YOU: Yeah, I know that
holliejo: I just thought you might need reminded
It's YOU: No, I got that

At this time I had my name changed to: holliejo n (l)Harry Potter(l) [the little (l) are hearts]

So I'm sitting here thinking about stuff and stuff and I don't know what I'm doin and I still don't know what I'm doing...but I'm doin something...when all of a sudden I think this: "You know what it is late and I'm tired and want to sleep but can't and stuff.

So...what is a girl to do? I don't rightly know do you? Have you ever just wanted to give it your all and try really hard to make it anywhere in life and stuff...but then you realize you don't have to confidence to make it even if you were given that choice. That is what I'm thinking about...I mean I love to blog and I love to do all of these things...but what if one day I could become something more and be something big...could I do it? I mean people would be like "you're big now and you can do anything." But I would be like "I know...but even thought I'm big that doesn't mean they like me...they could just be playing? I don't know...my confidence on a 1-10 scale is like a 4.3 for real...and just think in like 10 years from now I'm going to be a teacher...how said is that?"

But yes...I have heard nothing from Stefan yet, but I wish I would! Hint hint...it is like 12:34 in the morning and I'm in some kind of state of difference...it is kind of cool but it feels like I could fall off the chair any second now. But yes...I don't like to

I just want everyone to know I'm not a dyke...it is just a topic of conversation, but yes..one word to cover today's topic: DRAMA Yes I know a simple word...but my friend let's call her: Nicole...well she is a no good 2-bit slut and needs to be put in some kind of coma. I'm for real...and if I had bigger balls I would do it myself. I don't know though...that isn't half of the stuff I want to discuss.

I would like to discuss guys...
1) There are to many of them
2) They confuse me
3) They make me wonder if they really care about me
4) I don't know what to do with them
5) They make me laugh
6) I don't know anything else...so I'm going to cont. with my wonderful explatanation

Okay...so I kinda like this guy and he is like I don't know how to explain it...and then their is this other one and I can't explain that and I just can't explain anything that I do with guys...I mean I love guys so much and want to be with one...but can't cuz I can't tell them that I feel for them and stuff...you know? OK...maybe you don't maybe you do...but I think I just need to take a time out and think of all the stuff that is going on and take that into prespective. Okay so not much is going on to put into prespective...so I'm thinking this: Do I really need a guy? And my brain goes: Hollie...what happened the last time you were with a guy? You got in real deep trouble, your grades went to hell, and so did you..." But my heart is like: "Hollie if you can get a guy...then you would have someone to care about you all the time and stuff...and you could get all the special things that go with a relationship" And then when you put the two together all everything comes out and you just want to scream cuz you don't know what to do.

So...that was the most confusing thing I ever wrote.....you know...cuz it is hard to think about all that stuffa and stuff...so I might go and do nothing now for a little bit and be back a little later to forfill my thoughts and stuff

Hollie's Thought:
"God...right now a something would be great" It is a guy and his named is going to be disclosed

blogger is going to the pits...I have no idea what the hell I'm doing...it is like being lost inside a really big city and I'm the dumb toursist...I think Suzie can help me though cuz she has this new format and stuff...but honestly why did they have to make everyone's like this...I don't like change and stuff

Later Taters

Yeah Right...I would like the old format back...it is like I have 12000 buttons I can push an be like I don't even know how to log out? Please somebody that runs blogger help me...i just don't know I can't even blog right!

I just want you to know that they did something to blog..and I want the old one back. I couldn't do the first one let alone this one? What is a Hollie to do? I just need to know what is going on? I odn't rightly know...but now you know what I get to meet one of the hottest guys I have ever seen next weekend! How great is that? I just can't wait and I'm very mucho excited...I mean who in the world gets to meet a super hot guy and very interesting stuff to

I'm just trying something new..I don't know what it is though

again doing nothing for the last 17 years of my life...i don't rightly know...but the bell is going to ring soon and I have to go to Mrs. Murphey's class again..the plus thing to this...she said my 3rd paper was finally getting good and made major improvemets...which for me is fabbity fab fab! woohoo. did you know that I'm looking like a matrix girl today...i could totally take neo and whoop him from here to mexico and yes with one hand behind my back...I would be like "Hey neo...your not the one...they just didn't look hard enough...now maybe I can beat those agents." and I would get them and he would be like "wo" and I would be like "yeah honey I did it? what you gonna do? Act a fool?" I don't know the song just came to me! Well...you know I love to blog and blogging is my thing...so you know what I'm gonna do..don't tell me...I'M GONNA BLOG! I wonder what the blogger's think when they read this and be like "woah..what is going on in her head?"

Well...I'm going to do somethings to my blog and stuff..so

Later Taters

Hollie's thought:
"I love you and you love me....well I hope you do?"

I hate Geometry...I mean I know I'm supposed to do...I really am...but I just can't bring myself to do...my blog is calling and needs to be fed! But...yes onward and upward. I don't rightly know what comes out on my blog...ever...you know at first I start something then it just comes together...it is pretty cool. I mean like right now I'm not thinking of anything just what is going on in my blog....okay so I'm debating if I do my Geometry or just diddly dattle for the next hour...but I'm going with doing my Geometry...of course not for a while...I don't rightly know though...see there I go again not posting anything of importance..but yet it makes me content knowing that people are getting to know that there is more to me than what is going on on the outside.

Hollie doesn't rightly know what she is thinking about...I used to do that all the time...no it is "I don't rightly know." and "Bloody Hell" maybe I'll pick up the 3rd person again...I mean I know it annoys people...but I happen to like it...so you either like it or lump it.

I just got an idea. But...I'm going to have a thought of the day...and a question of the day...just to get a little sneak peek at what people think about everything I have to say. Okay...well I still got time to kill and it looks like I only got like 3 questions to do on my Geometry...so I figure I will be fine. I wonder how I got smart? I mean there are so many people that don't know a thing...they don't get good grades and do give a flying &##@ (I'm trying to cut down on curse words)! So...how did little old Hollie get to be so smart? I mean I'm sorry to admit this..but my dad can't read cuz he has some kind of LD. I feel so bad for him cuz everyone thinks he is stupid..but the fact is when it comes to machines...he is like a top dog. He made his own bike like when he was 8 and learned to drive at like 12...he is really a nice guy and I wish I had a closer relationship with him cuz I barely got a father figure in my life (unless you count Evan...but I still thinks he's a woman [no..that doesn't make my mom a lesbian]) I don't know it is just so hard for him and me and I don't know...but I just wish for one day I could be dumb as a box of rocks...cuz then I would know that I'm special...I know that kind of sounds bad..but it is true...I feel for stupid people..I mean honestly stupid people get to do everthing...they get extensions on projects, only have to go to college for 2 years, and get the easy classes...boy I wish I was stupid...but then you got to think...even with those easy classes and stuff stupid people got to fight for just a C average...how sad is that...in my eyes a C is like failing...my family has brought my brothers and I up on that...we think a C is like falling off the face of the earth...I mean...I don't know...but it is just so hard for me to think about being stupid...I'm kinda glad I'm smart...cuz I get to get bigger and better things out of it. Boy I'm kinda selfish.

You know what I don't like...sluts...that is right I hate sluts and personally we have one to many in our school. And you want to know the funny thing..she is in my class and is friends with me...now I know Suzie is friends with this slut..and I don't know if Suzie will tell this slut to look at my blog..but it is my blog and if the slut sees it then she knows how I feel and realzie this "DUDE YOU ARE A SLUT AND YOU NEED TO QUIT BEING A SLUT...CUZ DID YOU KNOW THAT 1 IN 3 PEOPLE WILL GET HIV BY THE TIME THERE ARE 21? AND DUDE YOU ARE GETTING A LITTLE CLOSE WITH TOO MANY PEOPLE AND YOU ARE CHEATING ON YOUR BOYFRIEND...DUDE IF YOU WERE ANYTHING NEAR SOMETHING I WOULD WASTE MY TIME ON...I WOULD BEAT YOU TO A PULP AND THEN KICK YOU AGAIN...CUZ YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A TWO-BIT SCANK!"
Peace out and lots of love homies

Hollie

I don't rightly know what I'm blogging but it is going to be something. So...we went on a field trip to the campus and it ends up...I bet you didn't know this: I'm a slut! Yes...I know this shouldn't bother me and I'm blowing things out of propation, but my ex-boyfriend says a whole lot of stuff about me and it very much royally pisses me...and I want to tell him: "Well...Aaron I know a whole lot of stuff about you and I could totally ruin you...and I'm going to do better....cuz in case you didn't know you taught me about the real world and know I got the best of both things! Hahaha! In your face...little did you know your little mind could get me so far...you know what they say 'got to bring someone down to get yourself up farther!' Hahaha on you and poo on you too."

Yes...well anyway...I have official giving up on everything including the wonderous guys. I don't know what I should do...but I don't know...see I don't know what I'm blogging about...I'm just blogging to blog. Do you realize if I don't blog it is like a dream gone to the wayside. I don't rightly know...but yes...I think I will just check on Suzie's blog. And do nothing. Do you realize that I'm a Harry Potter Obsessed Fan...I mean I luv Harry just a tad too much...you know :-) I don't rightly know so I'm out and about

Hollie's thought of the day:
"Every action has a reaction"

Later Taters

This sucks. I'm sick and tired of being sick. I mean I have a stuffy nose and sore throat and a headache. I want to go home. I mean please. I just wanna go home...but no I'm stuck here and I have to go to school...where are you Ashley I don't find you anywhere??? I don't know...but at least I feel okay sometimes.

Last night my mom and Evan were talking about my dog (Ginger) she is going to have to put down soon...and it is like the hardest thing I've ever been through. But, I'm scared because I feel numb to pain and hurt right now...I don't believe that my dog is going to die...but yet I know it is coming. I don't know what to do...but when the time comes I'm going to need a shoulder to cry on because it is going to be so hard. I don't know...I just need time to think about it. It was already hard to put my old cat down (Red) and now Ginger. If I lose Romeo or Patches I don't know what I'm going to do...I just don't know..it is like I'm lost and confused and need help so I just type all of this on the keyboard and everything will be alright again. You know...it is going to be hard.

But, yet, I don't know anything anymore...I can't taste food and it is like the hardest thing for me...I love food ad everything about it...expect maybe like Spinach or something..you know Spinach is gross and disgusting..but like I think my mom is making tater-tot-casserole tonight and that is my all time favorite comfort food...only it won't be able to comfort me cuz all it will be is a bunch of mush in my mouth!

I don't know...seeing me grow in my blog is great...I mean I go from being sad and talking about the most depressing things to talking about food...but overall I must say I'm very pleased with my blog...I mean it gives my pleasure knowing now that my blog is something besides a bunch of posts and stuff...it is actually a Hollie on the internet. You know that...so if someone came across my blog and read it they would get some kind of thought of how I work. But, what is super nice about my blog is that these are my thoughts not my words and that is one of the best things in the world...cuz my mouth isn't moving and my brain is on overdrive...which is great...cuz I tell you what when people tell me "You talk to much" I can tell them "No...if you think I talk to much...you should see my blog...cuz I think to much."

Hollie's thought of the day:
"When Herbert dies...I'm going to use it as a bowl to store money in...like this...everytime I say something bad...like use a curse word...I'm going to put a nickel in it." and by the time I'm done I can buy a new book.

Later Taters (Oh tater tot casserole)

I don't fit in and I know it. I mean I wander during lunch and get on everyone's nerves. I know I do...so I don't know what I'm going to do about it. You know I would like to move my blog...cuz many feelings are coming out and I don't want everyone to know them. I don't know...I'm really scared that my horoscope is coming true it was something like "if you're full of yourself you are going to lose friends." and well I feel like I'm losing friends...so if I don't come over to see you you'll know why. You know..I don't know what I feel and what I write is something that just comes to me...it isn't like I think greatly about what I do in my blog...it just comes to me and rolls off my fingers in a great way. You know...I wish I wasn't so scared to confront people or tell someone I like them. But in a way I wasn't supposed to cuz he is having a bad day, and me asking him would make it even worse. You know having a big mouth gets me in predictaments. I mean I think everyone knows that I like this guy...accept him (I don't know if that was the correct usage...but oh well...it isn't like this is school work or something.) I feel bad...I want to cry and be homing aiding Herbert cuz he is dying and I'm going to cry if he does...I don't know what to do...I have no one to talk too anymore..cuz I don't trust anyone..maybe I'll just cry and get more sick and tell my cat Romeo everything and he will understand everything.

Hollie's thought:
"She wants to be gone"

I'm thinking about someone's blog. I wonder if a blog is about me...you know...cuz I think it fits me..but I don't want to get her mad at me....I know I'm supposed to confront them over the live thing...but my blog needs to be fed something and I'm scared of her. She didn't know that and now she does

She is this:
Ashley! For the people that are confused and lost

Hollie's thought of the day
"I just want you to know..you're beautiful..I just want you to know...and Go Go GO Go Go Go Shorty...yes...my song of the lifetime...In Da Club." I love it and he loves me and I love him..and we're gonna get married..cuz we are going to the chapel and we're going to get married""

I love Ashley...she posts on my thing cuz she is only my team and we are unstopalbe! HAHAHA I must now go do nothing in my Consumer's Education class. Pretty Hot huh?

Horray for Hollie's Monday!!! Hehehe....Lookie guys: I'm in Hollie's blog...hehehe. Yeah Hollie--tis what you get for having me as a team member =) Points for you!!
I watched Harry Potter last night. Draco...mmmmm. He's so evil he's delisious. He's so Orgasmic (as Fisher would put it). Yeah, Draco is such a bastard, but I think that's why I love him. And his hair, is hellalisious. I'd do him. =)

I'm off now. I'm sure Hollie will post for you all in Homeroom or something. I think her baby needs feeding. Hehehe.

Peace Out,
Jelly

Thought Running Through Ashley's Head At The Moment:
**If You're Happy And You Know It, CLAP YOUR HANDS**

-"I just want to blend in quietyly & not be noticed, like a bug on a riverbank."
-"Buffalo can weigh 2000 #s and can sprint at 30 mph, 3 times faster than you"
-Around them there was nothing but silence, as if all the world was holding its breath"
-"She put her hand on the silky warmth of Will's daeman, and as her fingers tightened in the fus,she knew....that neither of the daemans would change now, having felt a lover's hand on them"
-"'Lyra' of course...with a wrenching crack, the knife shattered and the blad fell in pieces to the ground"
-"And Will look from them to Lyra's rucksack and back agrain, and he didn't hear a word they said."


When you look at me what do you see? Do you see a girl looking for something she doesn't have or just the opposite. Do you realize I haven't been with a guy for almost a year? But...I'm trying to be independent and free. Yet....I'm so close, yet so far away. The tears fall every night into the pillow. It doesn't seem fair. Where did I get off? I feel like a little girl who can't whistle to get a taxi in New York (Which....does that really work?)

Did you know I'm addicted to blogging and attention? I crave attention for some reason...I know the why but I'm Scared to say

I say bloody hell and they're like "You're not British Shut the &%$# Up" (you fill in the blanks.)

Well...I don't know what I'm going to talk about cuz I don't have the blog I wrote on my notebook paper last night (or day)!

But yes...I do know this..I have many lost and uncontroled feelings...I don't rightly know what I'm talking about...But I'm getting sick so send me lots of ballons and candy! (Please) But yes..Oh now I kinda remeber

1) Do you realize that many people think it is strange that I read Harry Potter and listen to 50 Cent and Snoop Dogg at the same time...and you know why?? Cuz Harry gots a NICE Magic Stik (I know...cuz he is my idol)
2) I realized that I like 1 guy and that is it...but I don't know how to get anything started but, I don't want to be a little 6th grader and have a friend do it for me?? (Suzie)
3) I don't rightly know...but I'm a little worried about myself..you know
---I was like at our school it is like "You have to be like this or we won't like you" and I'm like "Ok..I'll try to be like you but I'm promising anything...okay??"
4) Do you realize that I want to grow up and go to college soon...I don't know why...maybe it because I will never have to do my own laundry...just put quarter in the machine (which I find tres amusing)
5) Well....I'm going now and will be back tomorrow

Hollie's thought of right now:
"Everyone should worship me cuz I can say "Hola" and eat more than most guys"