Yeah...he didn't feel it, I know that now. And I doubt that the other one does either, I wish I could be either to stupid to like boys or to smart to realize that they aren't worth my time. But instead, I'm in the middle and realize that some boys are "worth my time" and I crush on them, only to realize later that they weren't worth it...and well you get it...and if you don't...oh freaking well...cuz I don't either.
loveya
holliejo
I wish I could tell you how I feel...I wanna be with you so bad right now, but I know that I won't tell you and that'll let you slip through my fingers just like everyone else. I hate myself for doing that I hate it. I hate it.
My four teeth are gone and what not...and I feel fine though, which you might just think of me as a crazy lady, but have no fear, I'm not crazy, just holliejo so ya know, I might just be that way. Muhaha...You love me.
A fire sign represented by the lion, Leo symbolizes bravery and pride. Leos are generous, warm-hearted, faithful and intuitive. But they also have traits that are to their disadvantage, including their tendencies to be pompous, to interfere and to be intolerant of others.
This is my thingy from SmarterChild about me and my sign (Leo)...yeah it's my birthday soon...y'all know that right?
more on Leo (me)
Intro to Leo
The creative and romantic Lion rules the Zodiac's
House of Pleasure, insuring that any romp with this cat will include sensory as well as sensual delights. The playful Lion loves fun and is a supremely social animal. If Leos can act out their fantasies on a public (even private) stage, all the better, for those born under this sign truly believe they're the star. As befits the King/Queen of the Zodiac, Leos are leaders. Their powerful presence, as well as staying power, insures them success in their conquests. Romance is also a princely quality for the Lion, and those who ensnare this passionate animal may well be rewarded with a wonderful and inventive lover. Like the ruling
Sun, which is at the center of the universe, Leos love to have the world revolve around them
What Leo Needs
What the King/Queen of the Jungle wants more than anything else is to be fawned over. Being a devoted sort, the Lion will return this gesture in kind, making a partner feel special, indeed. A lover with the right
vibes, who comes bearing gifts, exudes class and remembers that it's nothing but the best for this stellar cat, is clever and wise. The one who can bring out the true Lion, which is often hiding behind the glare of white lights and preening to an adoring crowd, will do both of them a favor. In the end, Leo's lover must always remember who is number one, and act on this all the time.
The Leo lover is giving and devoted, and lives for the pleasures that life can bring. One of these is putting them squarely in the spotlight, where they believe they truly belong. Anyone willing to bask in the Lion's warm glow is in for a red-hot time!
Leo And Romance
Affairs of the heart will quickly take on a 'me first' quality with the Lion, since they truly believe they are the best and must come first. Leos love to feel good, as befits royalty, so they will respond exceptionally well to pampering and flourishes. While Leos love to be admired and adored, they can also take the lead in
romance, since they believe their strength and power will win the day. When the Lion gets going, watch out!
Passionate fireworks will fly, since these folks know how to turn on the charm, and the heat. Since all the world's a stage to the prancing, dancing Lion, fun, excitement and a little razzle-dazzle are all part of their repertoire. Leos are willing to gamble where romance and love are concerned, since losing is not in their vocabulary.
Leo In Relationships
A relationship with the daring, yet devoted, Lion will rarely prove dull. This showy cat may need to be lavished with attention, but can also ravish a lover with riches in return. A slow, smoldering pas de deux, which leads to mutual bliss, is what the Lion would love from a partner. The fiery Lion requires a lover who can keep up with them and certainly one who can match wits. If not, the risk of boredom and flight is a big one, since
Leo has very high expectations. A partner who can understand and indulge the Lion's need to be the center of attention will be a keeper for this regal cat. The ideal Leo soul mate understands the pleasure principle and will work hard to keep their mate satisfied.
Leo In Love
The strength and amorous prowess that
Leos possess makes them a natural leader in the dance of love. This cat may want to rule, but it also wants to be admired, which makes for a love filled with sexual tension. Even so, the Lion's generous and giving nature makes certain that a lover will feel special. The Lion may test a lover from time to time in their quest for answers about love: What is it really? How can I feel it the most? The one with the best answers to these questions will surely make this cat purr. Love is a most attractive state for Leos, since the pleasure, attraction and fun of the game are all qualities which make the Lion glow
Leo And Sex
As befits a
Fire sign, there is a great physicality, white heat and ardor which emanates from the Lion -- in the right circumstances. The Lion wants action first and foremost, and if the moves are being made on them, all the better. When Leos are being made love to (slow, steady love), they are flattered into a state of ecstasy. This kind of approach will help create a Lion who is a very confident lover. Leos are utterly aroused when a partner revels in their beauty and aura and tells them how wonderful it is. As their gracious gift, the Lion will show their partner just how much that compliment meant! The Lion loves
seduction and foreplay, and a well-placed mirror or two would be nice, too, since that flowing mane and cat-like quality are begging to be watched.
The first football game is away and I'm vury vury sad. Like my little heart is broken, for I do not get to see a IHS football game for the longest time :( I better get with it or something, maybe someone is going down and I can catch a ride with them *crosses fingers* I dunno, maye just maybe. I do know, but I mean I guess...I dunno...oh man I am sad soo sad. Just broken little heart sad :( Oh man. Just sad. Someone come cheer me up!
Holy junkaroni!! haha...I get up early this morning because I was woke up from the loud radio and what not...and I'm like: oh man...wtf?? It's like 830 in the freaking morning. And I wanted a good breakfast but then I have Macaroni and cheese...come on ...how horrible is that?? I wanted something like oatmeal or something, but instead I have Macaroni and cheese. Wow...that's all I have to say on that. haha
Last night...he was nice...how freaking crazy is that? Super crazy. Because he was kinda mean to Amanda. I laughed. like this: ha ha ha ha ha. All the while enjoying the fact that for once he was talking to me...and what not...so ya know? There could be something...yeah right...laugh laugh laugh
I get bored a lot and no matter what I'm always bored. It sucks to be bored don't you think? Of course you do. haha...everyone that is anyway thinks being bored is the most horrible thing in the world. I hate being bored. Yes, I really do and that is all.
So I was talking to someone today and I thought it was the best. Do you realize that I can't go a day without talking to someone. I mean on the phone I can do it, but I mean I have to talk to someone on the internet, cuz if I don't I go bloody crazy and what not. In fact if I didn't have the internet I would go damn crazy. Just so crazy...well I'm already crazy, but I would go more crazy than I already am. I have no idea what I'm talking about, it's kinda funny. I have no idea.
I'm bored and when I'm bored I babble and get tired. When I'm tired it means I would love to sleep and to sleep at only 930 is a shame. I love to sleep and what not...but no one is ever on. I think there should be a rule that everyone should be online or better yet I should get a life, yeah that might be a good thing, you know. But, since I have no friends around here and they are all to busy for me, but no Amanda, I mean what good is that? I mean I thought that mabye since I'm leaving they would wanna hang out, like I've only hung out with Courtney once this summer...that's crazy. I used to see her every single day, almost. And then there are the people that I lose touch with. I mean everyone seemed so determined to be my friend and what not and granted yes I love them all, but I mean why wouldn't you at least call? I mean come on. but whatever. I try not to let it bring me down, because then I get all depressive. It's been awhile since I've thought about Ralphie and what not...I realize that I don't really need him in my life. And I don't think I need drummer boy either. They are just really fun to crush on. And well...drummer boy is fun to tease and taunt and just fun. But, I know that nothing will happen just because it's kinda late for anything to happen. And he would never think of me like someone like that, just becaue you know? So I'm not worried about it, and I'm gonna try to "let go" and what not. But, ya know...I have fun. I just do. haha..underoos? Anway.
I'm in love. This time is different. I'm not sure that anyone believes me or even wants to hear this, but it's my blog so the rest of you can suck a donkey dick. You know I don't mean it. But just don't read. I'm in love. That's what I feel and I know that I am. I wanted to click the "more" button just now. Anway...so love, my love is great and large for him. The only thing different this time is that I don't feel the need to be with him. I really don't and you should know that is an awesome thing for me. Because I used to think that I needed him in my life always and forever more. But, now I realize that he is going to be in my life always and forever more, but not going to be a big part of it for awhile. Because I have things here to take care of. And he has a girlfriend. Plus, well the thing called the ocean is in the way of everything and even then we are miles and miles and miles apart. But, I have this feeling that when the time comes he is going to be part of my life for always and forever more even if we just joke around about it for now. He is amazing and I love him. He's my best friend.