Looking back at what I wrote yesterday...makes me bloody think: oh man...what is going on?? I think I may pass Geometry...but it might take a little bit...I dunno why though...since I'm LEARNING ABOUT AREA!!!!!!!!! ROCK ON! Okay...better now...now I must talk about everything else...like...um...junk I just had it...umm...nope still nothing...oh I have to go find super things about my blog...not the bad pessimestic ones! I have something to say: I finally got my scholarship crap in!

Testing

1) You don't even have to get your Geometry test back and you know you freaking failed.
2) You rip your fake nails, that look good, off because you're having an anxiety attack right before you take a test you're gonna fail.
3) You know no matter how hard you try you're never going to be able to get on a diet because food is your life.
4) You have to talk on the phone for 3 freaking hours about nothing...but she's your super good friend
5) Your blog has become nothing and you feel like deleting it, because you don't get to spend time with the geeks
6) You complain because dots on your painting aren't dots...they are straight almost...rah!
7) You cry when you find out Devin Harris is going pro...or at least thinking about it...A LOT!
8) You used to love a German boy
9) You just think all you have to do is get a D- and then you're home free
10) You know you suck and you're a failure at life...and your reading this...or you have nothing better to do...so you're still reading...yup...you're a failure.

I suck...it's kinda nice being a failure...no one expects anything out of you!

I'm going to make this quick...he was thinking about getting me something while he was in Flordia...that has to mean something...and if it doesn't...then that is just crazy...but yeah...other than that...there really isn't anything...he asked me some questions...and questioned my telling him how cute his shoes are...he smiled a lot...and it was very cute...I'm thinking that everything will be okay...I know it will...because I just can't stop thinking about everything..I just know it.

I'm putting this on here because I really don't want everyone to look at this post...just because of everything...here is an edited one:
Yeah...the band is coming home in like 8 hours...it is pretty crazy thinking that this whole week nothing has really changed...and I didn't miss people like I thought I would...I mean that should me something...but other than that nothing has been going on...I've got fake nails on and I'm really proud of myself that I can work the keyboard without hassle...but whatever. I mean I look back on me and Stefan and the little thing we had and I look at him...and I remember all the times I told him I loved him...and I looked at it...and I was like...wow...I didn't love you Stefan...I just cared a lot...and you can get those things confused a lot. And I feel for you two...cause I think you are going to get your feelings really all hurt and stuff...because I did...one of you love each other...and the other just replies because they're scared of the fact...and that's what happen to with Stefan and me...I think he just told me...because of the fact that he didn't want to hurt me...and that freaked me out...because I know now that...well he didn't mean anything he told me...and that just really got me all hurt...inside. Now...he's doing the same thing to Kathy...and that can't be healthy. But whatever...it is kind of her fault...but yeah...so now I'm chilling here just thinking about everything...waiting for Stefan to call me...waiting for Stefan to laugh with me...waiting for Stefan to tell me he loves me...knowing that he never will...because he didn't feel that way...and that hurts me.

Let's talk about everything else though...I mean the fact that I only have two months of school left...until I'm done...the fact that I'm never coming back here...because I've been hurt so much...the fact that half my family won't come to my graduation...because that is the way they are...but whatever...I really don't know...I just sit and think that maybe one day I'll be really happy...that something will happen and I won't have to worry anymore...but whatever...I dunno...it is so pleasant in the library I don't have anything to worry about..and today...I'm not skiping school...

Okay...anyway something else to talk about...I mean ok...need to have a whole new post.

Yea...I'm back from a hella long weekend...which wasn't all that great if you really think about it...I mean I went to Wal-Mart and stuff...but like that counts for anything...I saw several people on that day: 1) Nic, 2) Sabrina, 3) Stefan, and 4) Tony...that was interesting condsidering that I never saw that many people in Wal-Mart before...Courtney isn't mad...which rocks...but I should really go do my work...

Word Of Advice:
"dont use cute around guys"