yeah, you heard right, my blog is fucked up and I still love it thank you very much.

you suck donkey dick.

Said holliejo

It's like nothing else matters after the few that get what they want are through getting what they want, so then it's all gone and no one cares anymore? Why can't it be that they care about everyone just as equally as everyone else. I'm not sure, but yeah...it just really bothers me. Like how Erica got me a journal and the 5th Harry Potter book in Paperback, because I need another set of them, because my old ones are all gross. Anyways, so yeah...the journal. I don't think any one else would have gotten me a journal, because I really don't think that they would have cared about something like that. I dunno. I mean that. I dunno...when someone like Erica does something for you, then it means something. She's basically my best friend and she's someone that I love being around more than anything. She's like a one in a million. She reminds me so much of Sabrina, 'cept Sabrina and I never got along like we do. People in this life are so amazing and so pure it's just awesome how everything changes and what not in a course of a second. I think that me and Erica will end up getting a lot closer than what we have been, because it just is the way the world works. Which doesn't bother me. It's amazing. I really mean that, how everything in my life has changed. I don't think I've changed, and if I have I'm not ready to admit that. Anyways...so yeah. I don't know. It's just amazing how everything changes and what not. I think that's my main goal in life, is to find out why I'm always changing and how I'm always changing, because I know that I'm always changing trying to fit some mold and push out something else in my life. But, the fact remains that the thing that never changes about me, is the fact that I'm always focused on change. Why in the world is someone like me so worried about change. I honestly have never understood it, it's like my biggest fear in life and my biggest everything. The one thing that I've always been scared to face, but I make it alright with it. I'm really confused by all of this, but then again, I'm not. It's just amazing. Thank you again Erica, because now not only did you give me an amazing gift, but now I'm on this amazing writing high. You have no idea how much that means to me, because I mean I haven't felt like writing this much in like forever. It's just amazing. I really have got to get my collection going. Because I really wanna read the harry potter books over again this winter, plus get a bunch of other books read. I haven't read in like forever, that can't be good. But, yes I'm gonna go find out if there are any new books that I must read.
thank you :)
holliejo

Don't Speak, I know what you're saying. Anyways, that's the song for the day. So, I realized that McKenzie is a fat liar, and I'm the one that comes off as the bitch all the time, which is a complete bunch of bullshit if you have to ask me, because that isn't the way things go down, I'm the nice one and I realize that the more I look at her. It's amazing. I don't know. She's the one that is holding me down, not me holding her down. And I really don't care what anyone else has to say about it. I really really don't. I mean that. I don't see why the hell everything is so hard for her to understand and control. It's just a bunch of bullshit. I get so angry at her for everything she has done to me and continues to do, because I don't know. It's just soo stupid. I have no idea. It's just soo stupid. I don't know. I mean that. I just wish that everything was better. I mean that. I don't know. She doesn't want to be my friend and that's all there is to it. It's stupid. I don't know. This all for now, because I have to do some things for Geo. so I pass that class too. :)

And I feel that I just want to write. I just want to sit here and do nothing, but write. I mean isn't that the best feeling in the world for you?

I wish I could tell you how I feel
Just take back all those things we did
All the kissing, touching, and sleeping together.
It's amazing how you made me feel
Even if I was just three weeks
You made me feel like I was the most
Important
Thing in your world
But, then you left me all alone
I had to fend for myself again
You're love that you gave me though
will stay with me even in time of
depression
I want you back in my life
Only you can make me feel so loved
I want to hold you until the sun comes up in the morning
and the stars go into slumber
There's so many needs
So many more wants,
I wish I had you here with me to make me feel ever so
Loved.

I know I know, you think it's a pile of hunk a junk. But, I love it :)

Okay...here's something else. just coming up off the top of my head, so 'cuse me if it sucks some donkey cock.

Every time you tell me you care
my heart skips a beat
as corny as that sounds, it ain't nothing but the
truth
I would never lie to you, ever, because I know that I
can't
and if I decided to tell you I didn't care, my heart wouldn't be able to
hide
what I really feel for you, so carry me through the doorway
in my white satin dress
make me feel more loved than ever, because we've been
through everything this is for sure...I'll love your forever...and ever
and never leave you

wow, I really really suck tonight
Mmk! Here we go again!

I wanna be with you, becaus I know that if we were together, you'd be like that guy that I've always wanted, the unattainable one. I just want to be able to hold you and love you like no other day before
fuck I can't fucking think it sucks ass.