I can't believe that I'm going home already. It's already the end of March, and school is onto spring break, and then everything is going to come to a quick, tight close. I have to get with the problem again...I mean that. I don't know why I don't worry about it so much, but I do. Anyways, so yeah...it's strange how everything has changed and how much I've changed. I've met so many people and I don't hthink half of them realize how much they mean to me. I mean that. I don't know why I'm like this or anything, but you know...it's just strange...I just want to be able to start this year over, because it's gone so fast, and I just want everything to be right. I don't want to make the mistakes that I did. I don't want to have to be all doomed with everything. And I wanted to go to classes and get good grades and make everything all good, but I don't think that's going to happen or anything...I dunno...it's all confusing...

I don't know why I'm crying...but I like this place and I don't want to leave...but I love Courtney and Manda more than anything and I don't want to leave them either...it's right and wrong it's all good and all bad...there's no inbetween...because I totally don't think about the options...basically...

I love it here