Well...I don't know how to explain this feeling but it is like this: I like this guy [don't know why...don't know when I fell head or heels....and I don't feel nervous around him]! Okay...so there is TWO of them...I mean...oh noooo....not again.

I'm supposed to talk about a boy named Scott. Scott doens't know this, but he is going to be going to Platteville with me. I dunno why, but he is just doing to. Also, Scott is madly in love with me...and promises to buy me some flowers. [and chocolate, bling, a car, a house, my college education, and anything that my little heart desires] But, no really Scott is really nice to me, and I love having him as a friend. This is the blog of holliejo and I love it. Scott is just someone that goes to my school and is my friend, since I'm repeating myself, I shall stop.

Procastination...well for one it is spelled wrong, but two I'm doing it right now. I dunno. I think I have a really great thing for Senior English. I really do...I believe that it is super, but I dunno if others will think otherwise [such as Mrs. Murphey??] But, also I have Geo. to do, and I really don't want to do that...and everyone should know this. I really want to just say: I'm finished with my thing. Wow...I dunno, but something just happened it was pretty cool to say the least.

Okay...I dunno. I'm really sorry I even got caught up in anything like this, I mean I thought it was real...and my friend knew it wasn't. I know now that she had good intentions. But, her good intentions weren't meant for me. No sirre bob. I'm sorry. I'm sorry for yelling at you, telling you to fuck off, in fact...I dunno, but I feel pretty damn happy I got that off my chest. I dunno if I could ever forgive you. Ever. I really don't. Imagine you finally acomplish the one thing that means sooooo much to you. Your fiend tells you that this is prolly the best thing that has ever happened to me, and now I will get even farther in life. I told her that this was one of the many wishes I had, that I was finally going to get something out of life. We went on and on about how possibly great this is. How I'm finally truly going to amount to something. I was soooo happy.

This cont. into tomorrow. Again, I told people that I was getting published that I was getting something out of life. By 5th hour I found out it was just a scam. A lousy scam that says they publish your stuff., publish one book for you...then your done...that's it...it is over...nothing more nothing less.

Then my friend told me aobut this...she knew too. But, she didn't want to break my spirit. She didn't want me to get hurt, that was all. But, it hurt soooo much more when she knew the whole time, she knew and she wanted me to be happy. But, I would of been so much more happy if she would of told me there, that way I wouldn't make a complete fool out of myself in front of everybody. I would of not told anyone, I just would of pretened not to do anything. Because that is what I would of want. But, for now I just want to be okay...and pretend that nothing happened. But, I just want to be okay for now.

But, I want to go somewhere new now. I don't want to go to this school anymore. I don't want to deal with these people anymore. I really don't. I just want to not do anything.

later taters

holliejo

Horoscope:
You will probably want everyone to know exactly how you feel today, dear Leo, and you won't be shy about expressing your emotions. Feel free to take the lead on matters, for you have the self-confidence and emotional stability to do quite well at the helm of the ship. Try not to let your mind trip over itself, however. You might have the tendency to think about a certain issue so much that you completely lose perspective. [crazy]

Hollie's Thought of The Day:
"I dunno...right now it is another state of awe, but this is in amazement."

Well...it all started a few months about I made a wish, my wish was: that I wanted to get something of my published. I wanted to get something of mine compared to my fav. author: J.K. Rowling. Well folks tonight I got a wonderful letter from poetry.com saying that me: holliejo will get one of my poems published in a book: a coffee table book...yes...I'm in a state of awe to...but I have something to be proud of...more on this later

later taters

Hollie's Thought Of The Day:
"I guess dreams do come true."

I'm sure if I really wanted to I could do the template thing myself, I just can't ever find the sites Ashley finds with all of them. I dunno. I really don't know...I've got the orange writing...I could count that as a plus...considering that I really didn't mean to do it. I just don't know. Okay...since a scary person just walked in this room...I'm totally not for anything. Okay...this person threatened to kill two of my friends...I was really kind of scared...cuz I don't want him here. He could honestly snap. I mean I know that he has some problems...but I his parents don't give a rat's ass. I feel sorry for him in a way, but otherwise I'm like "Kid...just relax" On Thrusday he was arrested and now he is back. [okay then??? Huh??] I dunno though it is really wried.

Okay...So I dunno know what else to post about. I would like to say this though: Thank you Ashley for not letting me talk to him...even when I wanted to...hahaha...just think I would of been there for hours. Maybe days.

But...Happy Christmas [the British way]

Horoscope of the day [if you're wondering I'm a Leo]:
You may feel a bit stodgy during the day, dear Leo, but things are going to pick up quite a bit tonight. There will be a great deal of wind to fuel your fire, and boy, are you ready to burn! It could be that you are like a desert of dry sagebrush just ready to catch fire. The whole mountainside is about to light up in a beautiful blaze of glory. You are ready to shine like the brilliant star that you are.


later taters

Hollie's Thought Of the Day:
"Nothing much...trying to find something, but it really isn't working."