I'm just typing up some stuff. I must go though...I'm writing a story or something like that ...and I found out that I really like it so I have to work on that...but other than that...nothing much

later taters

holliejo

holliejo's thought of the day?

-Hello everybody
-Hi Dr. Nick

I don’t hate her
just dislike
I don’t love him
just care a lot
I don’t run
I just hid
I don’t see
I just hear
I’m not what you think
just the opposite
I’m not hard as stone
just hard to break
I’m don’t like
I just love
I don’t feel
I just hurt
I won’t be dumb
just not as smart
I won’t give up
just slowly decline

I'm thinking this: nothing much. I want you all to know that I want everything to be better...it may be a while...but I think that I will be okay...okay? I can't talk right now...so I'm letting my bestest friend talk:


Word up kiddos! 'Tis Ashley in Hollie's blog. Holliejo rox my sox and floats my boat! I lubs her lots! I think ya'll should just back the heck off and leave her alone! Otherwise...I'll aproach you directly and tell you to your face. So. yeah. But anyways...hmm...I was thinking, FREE PUBLICISIZING (spell check)....go! now! visit my site! http://dirtyprettysecrets.alwaysbroken.com

i just wish that for one moment i could be perfect...for one moment people that say they love me would really love me...people that say they care would care...for one moment...i wish i knew what it would be like to be dead...to see if i would like it...for one moment i wish i knew what it was like to be in love...true love...for one moment....i wish i was happy

i don't know...i just feel this way...you ever get the feeling that no matter how hard you try you are never going to get where you are going? I feel like that everyday of the year...feelingl like a failure in life...no one cares no one does anything

I hate it how you make me smile

and always know just what to say

I hate it how you're always right

and how you'll be there everyday

I hate it how you make me cry

then turn around and make me laugh

I hate it how you make me happy

right after you made me mad

I hate how you will always be in my heart

no matter where you are

I hate it how I'll always love you--

wether you're near or far


Lots of Love from Ashley right here. She is a great writer, but claim she can't do it. When deep down...she'll always be better than me

lovelots

holliejo

I walked home without your hand in mine. I thought about all the time we spent together. Now you're gone and all I hear are the leaves blowing; wishing it was your sweet voice whispering in my ear. But, now you're gone and I wonder why I put up with you all the times you made me cry. The times you hurt me and said it was my fault. You made me believe your apologizes. You did things wrong that I thought were right. So now I look back, knowing I'll be okay. Maybe not tomorrow, and definetely not today.

Untitled by Hollie

I must say last night I decided on something new. The one thing I will never be able to live without is Willow. She means so much to me. If I had the choice of having a kid like her or never reading another book again. I would pick to have a kid like Willow then teaching her how to read and then have her write and write until hse had something published. I don't think I could even start to ponder the possibilites of not having her in my life. Though I don't think I should say that because right now she really isn't in my life...she just has memories of me and it hurts to know that my step-mom hates me and doesn't want me near her kids. Honestly...the one thing that I will never be albe to live without is the one thing that I can't have in the first place. I love that girl to death and I would honestly end mine if she ever left this earth. It goes something like this: When Willow is around me she makes the earth my heaven and she is my little angel.

I love Willow more than anything on this earth. Hell...if I had this choice: Be married to George Clooney and be happy for the rest of your life or having a kid like willow...I would pick Willow. She is the greatest thing ever to happen to me. If ever I was down when I was living with my dad she would be there to pick me up. And then there is Jasmine. She is like a Willow...but with Blonde hair. [Willow looks just like me] Jasmine is my pride and joy. I remember when the girls would come to me over their own mother. I was a proud sister and I would do anything for those girls. If the devil himself came here and said "Hollie you have to die for your sister." I wouldn't even think twice. I would be gone and out faster than a gummi bear in the front of me. Honestly. I love those girls like a fat kid love cake. I will always be there for them no matter what.

Later Taters

holliejo

Hollie's thought of the day:
Then I ask myself, "Is everyone's first love fake and neverlasting?"
--Taken from my prose: Neverlasting Love by Hollie