What are you supposed to do when...you walk in and there's a boy in your room (no problem) and they're watching a movie (no problem) but, it's one o'clock in the morning and you're really really tired, and you tell them: I'm sorry, but I have to go to work in the morning. You'd like to change, you want to go to sleep without distractions and what not, and so she just "storms" out of the room and what not, just pushing "off" on my DVD player and leaves, well she turns off the television, too, but leaves on the stereo. I have no idea if it's some "unwritten" rule that you're supposed to be able to sleep with people in your room watching a movie or not. In fact, I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing or not. So, when I told her I was sorry for kicking her out, and she replies "Well, it's my room, too." What the fuck am I supposed to say to that? Honestly. When someone thinks that because it's her room and what not...and they should be able to watch movies while I'm trying to sleep, because I have to go to work in the morning, what is holliejo supposed to do? I'm really really really confused. Because I fucking snapped on her, I mean I have no idea what she meant by that. Like if I should be able to sleep with or without distraction. If I should have gotten the clue to have been like: Oh I'm sorry I'll be back in a fucking hour so I go to sleep without distraction. Or if I did the right thing. That's the thing. I don't know if I did or not. I know that snapping wasn't the thing, but you see I really don't like her at all. I mean I just don't. I wish I did, but I don't think that I'll ever be able to like her. I hoenstly don't. Which is kind of sad, because I have to live with her for the next couple of months, which is going to be hell. I hate her. Like I have tried and tried again, but I just don't see us ever getting along. Anyways, so yeah, that's always a nice thought. Anyways, I have no idea what happened, but I know that I snapped and that I shouldn't have, but guess what if I go back and apologize I know that I won't mean it, in fact, I really don't feel like talking to her ever again. I just want to be like: meh. That's nice. I don't want to talk to you. Now, go away like you always do and what not and find someone else to talk to. Like, have it to where we're just two people that have to live together. Do things that make it easier for the other to live with and respect things with the other person. So, hollie will do the dishes take out her garbage, keep her shit straight and all of that. If McKenzie and do the same. Holliejo just isn't in the mood anymore. She doesn't like McKenzie she doesn't want to be McKenzie's friend. Hollie just hates her. That's all. She's soo used to getting her way that if it wasn't her way, she couldhavn't have it then. At all.
To go or not to go this is the question. If I do go it'll be the best fun I've ever had, but if I don't go then I dunno. I'm just waiting until 6 so I can get my paper and what not...then woot woot do some freaking homework. That'll be fun. NOT!!
You see me again and you realize that everything you ever said was true. You want to be with me the rest of your life, but you're only going to be with me for a week and a half. That's going to hurt the most in our lives. I want to see you so bad, and I know that I could have the money for it. I know it, but the fact remains that I'm scared to see you, because of everything. If we were by ourselves, everything would be awesome.
^-^ I love him ^-^ He's so great. And makes me smile. I would love for him to come to school. That'd be great. I miss him a lot. He's the bestest boy for me in the whole wide world. I dunno how I did it or anything else along the lines of that. But, I know that one day.