Anyway...so today is as you all know: Senior Skip Day...there is a supporting good chance that half of them are drunk, all of them are high, and they are having the time of their lives...while I'm at school and some bitchy ass fucking Junior gets all bitchy with me...well let me tell you: fuck you...I was on the brink of snapping...then Amanda left like 3rd hour...and I'm thinking: what the fuck?? But oh well...I hate my class...I dunno...I guess I coulda went...I mean I was invited to the "senior carpet" what the fuck is that all about...it is a carpet you sit on it while other people rub their fucking feet on it...now you tell me who the stupid people are...I mean come on now...but oh well...I'm really happy that I'm graduating...because the more I think about everything the more I realize that I won't miss the people I think I'll miss...just because yeah you all know me and what not...but not like that...I feel really bad about that and what not...and I know that I might hurt the other people...but that doesn't mean anything...I dunno...I really don't...it really sucks about everything...but you know I'm sure it will end up that I miss you all and what not...

Today...Nic said that I should take him to Subway with him...how hard does that rock? Yeah pretty damn hard...for really...anyway...I think there is a chance that Leonard is out of the picture for good which totally rocks for me...because I think that there is a supporting good chance that he likes me...I dunno though..but my "feeling finder" kinda thinks so, too...but we'll have to wait and see...but anyway, I'm out...hope you all get caught.

So I'm chillin in the LMC doing nothing...imagine that...but anyway...I'm really angry about everything and what not about this boy that doesn't deserve his grade because he really doesn't work for them and it pisses me off...oh Mr.Donahoe I think that you should do something about it...I really do...I dunno it pisses me off that he can get away with all of that stuff...oh man

but anyway...so I'm doing nothing...I only got six of the ten problems done on my Geometry test and that really sucked...but I dunno...I was really pissed off about that...I dunno...it just really bothered me...I dunno I mean I knew that I wouldn't be able to get them no matter what...that is unless the test was just given to me and I could get the answers...but you know that is kinda hard to do...but yeah...and on top of that...well if you must know: I emailed the stupid German boy again...yes I did...aren't you pissed at me...yes I'm over him...and of course madly happy about that one boy that smells good and wears black shoes...but other than that...he seemed that he was sorry...but I kinda thought about it and was like does he really mean it...or is he just playing you know?? Cuz you never know...I didn't apologize and he knows that I won't and what not...so that rocks for me...but other than that...I dunno...he said that he really misses me and what not...and even though when we talked on the phone...which he usually doesn't like...he really liked talking to me...so that really rocks...I dunno...I just dunno...I mean there is a good chance that nothing will come from the "relationship" we have...I mean we are friends and that is it...there is nothing else there...there is never going to be nothing else there...and I think now we finally both realize that...and that really rocks for me and him...but the reason why I did it was because of the fact that I thought that it was important for him to know that I did care about him...and that he should know the great things that are going on in my life...it is like a one in a million chance to be this close with someone half way across the ocean you know?? It just feels right...and what not you know??

My goal is to at least 301 posts by the end of the year...but anyway...it is kinda amazing how the year just seems to keep on going faster and faster like there is no kind of time barrier controlling what is going on in life...

but for really now...I find it very offensive when somebody is doing a speech for graduation with pancakes being something to talk about...that is absolutley horrible...but anyway...I feel kind of bad about not doing a speech you know...

I feel that without her he would of done it a long time ago...he hurts...and that is one thing I didn't see and that hurts...but it is amazing how well people hide pain...I dunno how to say it anyway else...you know...she is one of the strongest people I know and for her to always be by his side is amazing...I used to think that there relationship was crap on a stick...with all the PDA...and now I look and realize that there was a reason for all that...she saw past the face and looked at all the pain that he has...and she is going her damnest to make it better...but no matter what he is going to have to realize that he has to make it better...no cutting...no meds...no nothing is going to make it better...nothing...you just have to let go and try to move on...I dunno how big of a thing it is...but I know that you are going to have to try really hard to get where you need to be...it will take years and years of pain to be happy for many more...you can't stop it and you know it...I have no idea why he is doing this or what is going to make him stop...but I believe that she is a strong individaul and with support from friends and family I hope that he'll be okay...but it's going to be hard.

Anyway...I just thought that you all should know about everything and what not...cuz you're my friends and you all read this happily.

My goal is to at least 301 posts by the end of the year...but anyway...it is kinda amazing how the year just seems to keep on going faster and faster like there is no kind of time barrier controlling what is going on in life...

but for really now...I find it very offensive when somebody is doing a speech for graduation with pancakes being something to talk about...that is absolutley horrible...but anyway...I feel kind of bad about not doing a speech you know...

I feel that without her he would of done it a long time ago...he hurts...and that is one thing I didn't see and that hurts...but it is amazing how well people hide pain...I dunno how to say it anyway else...you know...she is one of the strongest people I know and for her to always be by his side is amazing...I used to think that there relationship was crap on a stick...with all the PDA...and now I look and realize that there was a reason for all that...she saw past the face and looked at all the pain that he has...and she is going her damnest to make it better...but no matter what he is going to have to realize that he has to make it better...no cutting...no meds...no nothing is going to make it better...nothing...you just have to let go and try to move on...I dunno how big of a thing it is...but I know that you are going to have to try really hard to get where you need to be...it will take years and years of pain to be happy for many more...you can't stop it and you know it...I have no idea why he is doing this or what is going to make him stop...but I believe that she is a strong individaul and with support from friends and family I hope that he'll be okay...but it's going to be hard.

My goal is to at least 301 posts by the end of the year...but anyway...it is kinda amazing how the year just seems to keep on going faster and faster like there is no kind of time barrier controlling what is going on in life...

but for really now...I find it very offensive when somebody is doing a speech for graduation with pancakes being something to talk about...that is absolutley horrible...but anyway...I feel kind of bad about not doing a speech you know...

I feel that without her he would of done it a long time ago...he hurts...and that is one thing I didn't see and that hurts...but it is amazing how well people hide pain...I dunno how to say it anyway else...you know...she is one of the strongest people I know and for her to always be by his side is amazing...I used to think that there relationship was crap on a stick...with all the PDA...and now I look and realize that there was a reason for all that...she saw past the face and looked at all the pain that he has...and she is going her damnest to make it better...but no matter what he is going to have to realize that he has to make it better...no cutting...no meds...no nothing is going to make it better...nothing...you just have to let go and try to move on...I dunno how big of a thing it is...but I know that you are going to have to try really hard to get where you need to be...it will take years and years of pain to be happy for many more...you can't stop it and you know it...I have no idea why he is doing this or what is going to make him stop...but I believe that she is a strong individaul and with support from friends and family I hope that he'll be okay...but it's going to be hard.

1) Everything is changing right in front of your eyes, but it still seems the same.
2) You've finally grown up, while still being a kid at heart.
3) Everything you ever thought you wouldn't become, is the person you are today.
4) The littlest things change you.
5) Your best friend from a year ago, the one you never thought would slip out, has somehow mangaged just that.
6) You never thought you'd make it this far, but somehow you did.
7) The people that have the power to make your life hell have somehow disappeared.
8) You find out that your life is going great, and for some reason you can't get enough of saying that.
9) The littlest thing make you happy.
10) You're still reading. Hahahaha...but no...how many people have supported me.

Those are 10 things that are amazing to me...not so normal 10 thins I find amusing:
1) Things that make funny sounds.
2) Shiny things [no lie]
3) When the boys in Phy. Ed. are all freaky and stuff
4) Lots of other things...but I can't think of them
5) Watching other people type.

Okay...other things that I enjoy are as follows...I can't think of any because I'm to lazy to do anything...

So everyone that is anyone is gone today...and it pisses me off...Some people want to run the mile and I'm all like: I can't...are you crazy...that is crazy talk...oh mannn ohh man...anyway...of course I'm supposed to be doing something and chances are that I'm ont doing it...imagine that...well well well if it isn't holliejo doing nothing again...but anyway...thinking about nothing...Amanda is at the stupid Holiday Inn...and she's prolly out getting 10 kinds of freak with Snoop Dogg, Luda, and who could forget the hot ever so hot boy from the Midwest Ghetto: Chingy?? Hahahahaha...I crack meself up, but anyway...on to nothing of the least bit of importance:

Tomorrow I have a stupid thing called at Geometry Test: yeah those blow...I dunno with the whole Coordinate Geometry going on with it and the whole Locus problems: yes I'll fail...just like always...but no I haven't failed the last two tests so there is a chance that I might do better than usual...kinda scary...but anyway...I dunno...

OH MAN WAS THIS SCARY: Last night me and manda were on the phone right?? [imagine that??] but anyway so we were on the phone and all of a sudden we could hear this person...and it was really scary...like freaking horror movie scary...also well it happened TWICE!!! RAH RAH RAH!!! That was terrifining [boy my spelling skills suck...] but anyway...that's all I can think of...my little fingers hurt from typing so much at one time...it's kinda funny...but anyway...

Umm...thinking thinking thinking...nope nothing.

Okay...everything is going great and what not...this font is cool...but anyway...so I'm just really thinking about everything and how great life is right now...I sent Steafan and email just so that he could get some kind of inside information on how my life is going...you know...because he's cool and I promise that I won't get attached because of the fact that everything is going good right now...the fact that the SEVEN STEP PROGRAM IS GOING GREAT...but yeah...I dunno...just thinking will blog more tomorrow.

I'm in art and of course we are having the time of our lives...I mean I dunno but I'm thinking about everything and how much the fact that he is acting that everything is going to be okay...but I just sit there and think that maybe just maybe he's pretending not to be mad at me because that is the way he is...and that pisses me off...anyway

I have several things to ponder over the weekend...I would throughly enjoy going to Zach's thing on Saturday to go and get the crap beat out of me with paintballs...but yeah...I dunno...I doubt...also there is the fact that maybe everything will be okay...I dunno...I'm just really thinking about everything and what not and that really rocks...anyway...

And then there are the rumors about Ashely...I really hope that she just keeps in touch...hell I don't even know if she is gone...I would really like to know that's all...I mean come on...I haven't checked my email in forever...so maybe I'll have someting in it...but I highly doubt it...and on tope of that...I mean I really love my blog...it rocks...I can't wait for all the interesting things to go down this summer...this will be the best summer ever...and this blog gets all the details...so now I'm out to do more of nothing.

I hope the fun begins this summer...I mean all around...for really there is nothing I want more than that...oh man...do I like him and I think he's over Lisa and on to me...I just get this feeling...at least I hope my "feeling dector" is telling me that. Hahaha...well I"m out...because well I have to go...love you all lots.