Suzie is my best friend in the whole entire world! I mean she is now a full time blogger! Not like me I'm a addicted overly loving blog mom! Yes...my blog is my baby...I'm a great mother to my blog..I feed it blogs everyday and it loves me for it...the zonk board helps it and makes new friends. I must go now and spend time w/a person so we can do nothing and talk about nothing

Hollie's thought:
"She wants someone to whisper sweet nothings in her ear."

I'm honestly addicted to blogging and I can't stop..I really can't it is quite scary seeing that I over blogged today. I bloody stop..I can't...Mike is trying to help me stop and I can't! I just can't help me! Please Help! I'm crying for blog help...I can't stop...and I want to make out with someone! PLEASE HELP ME! I'M ADDICTED TO BLOG!

OKAY...*WHEW*

Boy as of right now...I would like to be with 3 guys..all different ages..all differnet people..quite the challenge. I must go now..

Thought of Hollie:
"I love to blog."

Edited not even 2 seconds later
not all three of them at the same time...maybe a train instead (joke)

Thought of Hollie
"Laughing at myself cuz I mad a funny...I love the german and he knows it..and he needs to send me an e-mail"

Later Taters

I just want you to know "I wasn't kissing him...I was just getting my gum back."

Did you finish yet Stefan??? Okay in the WI State Jouranl today there is an article about Harry...and I didn't read it but I believe it is VERY HIP TO READ HARRY!!!

OK...so you see my entry and wonder "Okay and we thought she was running for president??" (Which by the way I'm going to [But first I have to go to Nevada...Remember Stefan & Lizzy]) But...Communist in the coffee can was something I remebered for MUSH (Modern US History) last year...when the US was trying to find a way to contain "in the coffe can." Basically it was something to do..and to make fun of Mr. Rice in the same way. (Cuz he ALWAYS drinks coffee!) But yes...I want everyone to know that I'm having a great day..and you know why cuz like half of the school is here and the other is at APT!!!

This weekend is going to be great because I will be at my grandma's doing nothing. (Yet, again I'm doing what I don't want to be doing)

My post earlier was going to be a lot different because I had had a lot of feelings...so I'm going to go with it again.

This is the True Story of Hollie Jo...the girl that wants to be alone.
Okay...Friday Sept. 26, 2003 It is at 12:50 p.m. and I'm not having much fun...besides the fact that I have a lot on my mind...such as
1) I really like this guy...AOK...I know that certain people will object to the fact that I like this guy and want to be with him

You know what I can't believe??? Is this: when people assume things about you! Honestly..."Well I just assumed it was like that...Or I just thought you would be okay with it???" What is up with that?? First...don't ever assume anything with me..ever. I may be the happiest person you know..but deep down I want to chop your balls off. Or...maybe I'm the saddest person on the outside..but in realiaity...I want to scream "I don't care cuz I'm happy!" I don't know....but that was the feeling coming out.

COMING SOON: Hollie's one thought of the day

NOW ON SCREEN: Hollie's thought of the day

Hollie's thought of the day:
"This is me and if you don't like it lump it."

Later Taters

I was going to post something about my horrible life and family...but then I might scare everyone so I'm only going to say a little. First off..my Zonk board is just getting started so it will be okay...second My life is hell..okay...Evan (my mom's finace [of like 5 years]) was on house arrest...so he got off...and now everything is back to normal
1) Loud Music
2) Grounding for no reason
3) Acting like idiots (my parents...not me)
4) Fighting until the wee hours of the morning
5) The fact that we live under the rule: Everything that can go wrong will go wrong.
6) I don't rightly know...but I hate my mom when she is drunk.

Now...I know that I don't believe in posting stuff about your family and stuff..but I can...seeing you are just getting an overview. There is no way that I'm going to come on and be like "mom took us to the movies [Secondhand Lions]" Cuz 1) my mom doesn't take anyone to movie and 2) I don't think people care. People want to get an overview of life..not a life story.

My blog is like a summary of a 1285520 page novel...wrap up in an itsie..bitsie...living space (Aladin)!!

Also...my blog is like 1/4 of the stuff that runs through my head. It is like an iceberg you only see 1/4 while the other 3/4 is submerged in the icy water below. I love everyone...I especially love Stefan...he is very neat and I feel for the fact that he has to take 36 hours of tests in the next two weeks...not in a row of course. Now my friend (and loyal reader) Lizzy said there was something on somebody's blog?? I don't know if it was mine or if it was Ashley's?? I'm very mucho confused! Oh well...life goes on!

Oh my god! I can't wait to have kids...I have so many plans for them...My spanish teacher brought one of her kids in..and he can speak some spanish! How cool is that?? I think that is the coolest thing! So...not only is my kid going to be spoiled but taught..he is going to be bilingual! How cool? I think that is super really cool!

Did you know? That I want to be someone when I grow up...but can't because I'm very shy and quiet? Now you may ask..."Hollie quiet? Yeah Right!" But the truth is as I'm writing this LONG blog I'm just sitting here taking in the hum of the computers...it is very comforting knowing that almost 1/2 of the kids in my school are gone today...it really is.

So I think I must go now and read blogs of others...

Later Tater

Look at me! I have a zonk board..and you know why?? Cuz of my best friend Ashley.

Now she is having some problems with an old friend..and this girls blog was like "don't say nothing about my friends and I would protect them with one arm." then she copied Ashley's blog..so then Ashley posted this about me: "And FYI--I gotta friend who will protect me too. But the scary thing is she's only got 1 arm and she's CRAZY!!!!! :p Yeah, so..nice job. Well done."

I give her props for everything she has helped with everything! So I must go again..and...well blog I love you. (I heard if you give your blog words of encouragement it grows everyday..and becomes more than your friend..but a way to commiacate with the rest of the world..espeically Germans (get it Stefan)!

Later Taters

Boy..doing two things at once is very hard. But I don't rightly know. The list of loyal readers is going up everyday. My blog title comes from my English writing assignment..so don't be scared readers. Yes..I was just reading Stefan's e-mail and he says "So are you doing better today than you were the other day. I sure hope so and i hope that i hear from you sometime again. I really like reading your long and really sweet blogs, and of course you cannot move your blog to a different spot without telling me, i wanna read every little, crrazy, messed up, lovely, funny etc. bit of it." I don't know what blog he read..but I much appereciated what he said. Now I have a Zonk Board..which people can post mini messages (Like Stefan) So I can get feedback on everything.

Today at school..I was normal..and nobody seemed to notice..okay so I was a tad on the abnormal side..but that is to be expected. I don't rightly know..but it is very good to know that I dislike my parents. I mean they are disrespecting my ideas of being a vegeatrian after I graduate..which is sad. Then I don't know..but I'm okay.

Yes...I just want everyone to know...when I'm normal there is nothing to talk about..oh my friend Sabrina and I put like 50 layers of lip gloss and did nothing..you see my bio teacher is a fluffnpuff and it is sad..that she doesn't realize that we are really just working in a group of 6 and doing half the work..while the others copy...we work together..making it very easy for us to get done..and do nothing some more.

I don't know about liking this one guy..but he is like I don't know. I think that this one guy likes me..and I don't know..but I've been through it before..and it ended in tears and anger...so it may or may not happen..I don't know..but I will go now.

Love lots

My blog...growing and becoming something...it is very nice..knowing that people are beginging to se...I have to do something..but I will be back

Ashley it is great that we have everything cleared up...you wanna put a Zonkboard on my blog for me??? HUH??HUH?? You know you want to..you don't do anything anyway.

Why? That is just a word that I use so much in my life..but the problem is that I'm using it more and more..and lately it has been getting scary. I mean a guy that I never talked with very much..is now the guy I would love to spend a lot of time with. It is kind of scary..you know..cuz he tells you he loves you and you want to know what kind of love..and you don't know..cuz you love him in so many ways.

A lot of people know who I'm talking about (My LOYAL readers) but yes. I'm sorry it had to end up this way. I mean I want to be able to see him again.

I know that everyday more and more people are reading my blog to cheer them up. I don't know if I cheer them up..but I want to help them into me. (I want them to see the real me) Many people don't see the real me and that is sad. I don't want people to fall in love with the fake me. That is what I'm scared that one person has done...I mean...I know he misses me and loves me..but I love him..I don't know how I love him..but I do. And I just want him to know that I do care for him and stuff..boy this is one of the most confusing things I have done in a long time.

Okay...new subeject. (Sorry I just dropped mine into lala land) I don't remeber what I was going to go on about now? I wonder what other people put on their blog? Well..on mine..I love my blog..Ashley and I were talking about that last night and it is like you have to love your blog..because you watch it grow and become something..I was going to say someone..but really it could...cuz it turns into me.

Guess What? I'm not going to be some hyper active crazy loony anymore..but instead what is calling on the inside to come out.

I don't know anymore..so I must go now and make a new one for today.

Even though I retract most of my statements...I must say that most of it wasn't a lie...the whole depressed and bored..and stuff...that is true...I am a front most of the time...and it is sad! But yes..I must go now...it is like 3:02 and I'm in Homeroom and most people are watching me! I must go now and Ashley I'm very sorry...I don't rightly know anything anymore...it is just the evil little devilish/jelous person coming out...I will miss everyone! Peace and Love

I must retract my statement I made this moring...I did make a new Blogger..but I decided that I will not have a different blog..but instead let everyone view the one I don't like...but yes...I do retract the statement I made this morning and very sorry if I made anyone feel bad...

Again very sorry

Hollie Jo (I would say my last name..but can't because I don't to be stalked)

Now that Suzie (her little * was to protect the innocent) was helped...I can come to my own problems...and this is it: I want everyone to know that I'm sick and tired of being me...honestly I want to scream and yell at someone and say "I WANT YOU TO LEAVE ME ALONE AND I DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS ANYMORE CUZ YOU ARE TRYING TO BE SOMEONE YOUR NOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!" yes that is what I want to say and that is what I said...my loyals readers do not be scared it will be okay...but yes...I want to say that I'm sorry for being mean all those years to anyone...for I'm starting new today..I'm going to be different..no longer am I going to be loud...but instead I'm going to be quiet and myself..I'm bringing a book to lunch to read..I'm reading books for now on and praying that I will get accepeted to college...cuz I can't deal with it anymore...I counted my friends...and I have 2 (Patches and Romeo) because they can't talk about me to other people and they are always loyal...I'm pissed off now and must talk about something else

Being depressed...it has come to my attention that my blog is depressing..well that is me..I'm quiet and bored with life..I want to run away...yes...the perky, loud, and happy Hollie is just a front! Yes...that is right! I'm a front...now you know and I'm happy to announce that I will never be the same! What am I talking about?? I wasn't normal to begin with?? Yes..I'm very pissed off! So I must go now and do nothing again!

Plus...I gave up with quotes and books...who reads anymore? No one? Why should I give people advice on what books to read...when they don't read??

Oh...and if possible I will be moving my blog to a different site and I will not be giving it out!

Boy Suzie* is having some issues with some guys..she was with this one guy and they were together for a long time (I think)! But...then they broke it off. You see Suzie* still likes this guy...in fact she loves this guy...Only he is with someone and they [the couple] are very much together...I don't know what to tell my friend Suzie* I mean I love her to death and stuff...but I don't know what to say...Because little does Suzie* know...I still love a guy I once knew to..I want to be with him very badly...I want him to know that I want to stay with him...but I can't...but...I know that one day...everything will be AOK and I can be with him...and I don't rightly care what anyone else can say about it...but back to Suzie (In my eyes [Suzie* don't get mad] likes another guy and his name is Herbert* [No not my fish]) and I think the two of them would make a cute couple but then Herbert is beeing obbessed over by another girl. (I'm not adding another name...I may confuse the small minded) But Suzie* I know that you may be a really good friend and all...but I don't rightly know..I want to say that...well maybe..just maybe...we could honestly just sit down one day (a Saturday) and talk about everything..cuz I'm there sweetie..I love a guy so much and he changed me into something new..and now he is gone..and I can't do anything about that and I miss that...cuz he changed me.

I must say that was the best Blog I ever had!

Well...you think things are just getting better....you think you did well on that horrible Spanish test...and you get a donut for breakfast...and then you get called to the office for the official questioning. Well, last night John (a over confident person w/nothing better to do in life then yell and make others feel inferior to them) started yelling and a screaming and I was like a yelling and a screaming too. But Bob (the busdriver) didn't get mad at me...so that is okay. But...I got questioned and since John said some mean things about me...I'm going to get him back...and I don't rightly care if he calls me a narc..because I'm Hollie and I'm better than him! Haha!!

But I must say that my Spanish test wasn't that bad! But..In the morning I can't really come up with stuff to say...you know..it is always at night when the day is done and over...I want to say that I must go and do something but I always come up with something more to say..Like right now I'm reading Harry Potter and The Order of the Phoniex (Stefan did you finish it yet) but yes...and the only reason why I'm reading it is because John made me feel inferior so I had to conjure up a comfort zone (Harry Potter) So I could be me again???

But what is me? What is a Hollie? I don't rightly know what a Hollie is..but that is what I'm about to find out...so here it goes: Hollie is:
1)one of the most unquie (remember spelling) people you will ever meet
2)she is one of the smartest people I know! (Being that I'm her)
3) I don't rightly know that much about the life of Hollie, but if I did have one it would be better than this
4) I want to marry George Clooney and live Happily ever after
5) Hollie knows that there is no Happily ever after in this life or the next
6) She wants everyone to know that I'm not that little girl anymore
7) She is trying to grow up and become that 1 in a million person you can't find any where else
8) Hollie doesn't want to be a statistic
9) Hollie wants to be happy
10) Hollie is sick of being something she's not
11) Hollie is quiet
12) Hollie is outgoing
13) Hollie is shy
14) Hollie is Holly with an -ie
15) Hollie is scared of being alone
16) Hollie misses the one person who almost made her Hollie
17) Hollie wants Willow and Jasmine again
18) Hollie doesn't know what Hollie wants..but one thing she does want is Hollie doesn't want to be Hollie anymore and that is what is she really does want

So after graduation and after she is in College Hollie can be Hollie...she can start anew and begin the new life of being the real Hollie the Hollie that doesn't have to be loud to get noticed...but the Hollie that will get noticed because she thinks about everything...and the fact that she is not going to be scared of being Hollie...and Hollie can be Hollie and be proud to be Hollie!

Well...I get it all the time. Even right now I have that. I know the whole Eleanor Roosevelt quote "No one can you make you feel inferior without your consent." Well then people always seem to get my consent...cuz I always feel like I don't matter. Why though? I don't rightly know. I know I shouldn't and I know that I'm supposed to be positive all the time...but right now I don't...in fact I never do. Plus...why should my blog be all about me...why can't it be about the poor homeless kids in the ghetto?? Why can't it be about everything else instead of my poor helpless life. Let's face it:
1) I have very few friends...and if the phone company asked for 10 friends I could come up with like 8 and that includes the weatherman number
2) My life includes a wonderful life of at least 50 pages of someone eles life a night..and on weekends it might be up to 3 novels
3) I've never had a real dinner and movie date..which is sad
4) I'm seventeen year old girl and my best friend is my cat: Romeo
5) My grammar sucks...and I don't think I'm going to get into college
6) I don't rightly know
7) I'm going vegetatrian in like 7.5 months...only because I need my mother's food to comfort me
8) I could prolly eat more than half the guys in my class...mind you at one meal
9) My mom and I have a horrible mother/daughter relationship
10) I don't think I have any friends
11) I always talk...about everything
12) Even freshman like talking smack about me
13) My favorite phrase is: Bloody Hell
14) I don't rightly know...well that is another one
15) I ran out of ideas..but I wish I went to a ghetto so I could get shot up one day, so I no longer needed to go to Ithaca High School
16) On the bright side: I'm leaving in like 7.5 months..so I don't need to go to the ghetto..so I must get over my lousy life and wait for the wonderful college life to approach..and quickly if I have a say!!!!!!!!!

It is official my new fav word is: Aftermath. But yes the aftermath of Homecoming 2003 is that I hurt and want to go to bed and sleep forever. But I got a free donut this morning and it is delicious (excuse my spelling...since this is my blog I refuse to use spell check)! But yes...I have a spanish test tomorrow and I don't wanna take it and I don't rightly know anything else right now. I'm very tired and want to go home (oops I just said that, brain on overdrive and I'm not even doing anything) But yes...I loved the dance and everything about it. Lizzy's friend are cool and crazy and tell me I have to much energy...which is true...but yes...as I said before I'm growing up and I don't rightly know, but right now I have to go make a list of the things I plan to do when I finally grow up always and forever...one more thing I forgot my earings again over at Ashley's house...so have them when I come over tonight...no I must go and do nothing for the next hours and want to eat lunch and go home and see my Herbert (for all that do not know [Stefan] he is my little baby fish)

Oh yes...I just had it and now it is gone...oh now I remember I dislike Mr. Davis...he gives me the willies!!!!!!!

Oh yes...now I remember...I have 3 faithful readers:
1) Ashley (we always know she will be my #1 fan
2) Stefan (the guy that leaves me so he can watch racing GRRRR!)
3 Lizzy (the newest arrival and one of my good friends)

Book of the Week:
Stargirl

Quote of the Day:
"5:30 p.m.
Lying down with cucumber slices on my eyes to take down the swelling......
5:50 p.m.
Libby crepty in and ate one of my cucumber slices. It gave me a terrible shock to see her face looming over me when I wasn't expecting it."

These quotes with Libby, Georgie, Angus and so on are from the last book of the week: Angus, Thongs, and Full Frontal Snogging (Check it out!)

Well...the end of a wonderful nite...I must say that is the most fun I have had in like a long time...I really enjoyed it. The best part was that people were all nice to me. And let me tell you I busted some moves...it was great...what would you do if you saw some crazy girl skipping around in her homecoming dress singing "In da Club, Ingintion, P.I.M.P., Right Thurr, etc. etc." It was fabbity fab fab. (My new and improved way of speaking) Only...I have a minor problem and I enjoy spending my time w/a guy and he seems great...but he is leaving...and I don't know...I worried...did you know that in Germany right now they can see the sun! Oh...my future husband was the star of Homecoming 2003...even though he was away on a wonderful trip! (O.K. so he is some hot guy Ashley knows...and well I kind of like him...even though I don't know him) I'm so happy...Guy/Girls guess what??????? I finally grew up! Can you finally believe it?? I grew up and now I'm some young lady! I can't believe it..

Who knew growing up makes you feel all good inside?? I didn't...even though I feel like I could fall out of the computer chair and conk out...I feel great...I don't care if I'm a tad "Chuncky" or a little to loud when I hear 50 Cent blast on the speakers...or the fact that I won't be able to hear properly for the next week! I can't believe it! Well...I must go now and talk to my German friend in Sweden (I don't rightly know what I just said)

Love Lots

Hollie Jo

Quote of the Day:

"I don't rightly know...but my bling is broke!"