I dunno...just thinking...I'm really sorry to say this: but I'm hella happy we didn't go. I just don't think that was going to be good for me. I've had some things in my life that have scared me to death. I mean...I don't really want to go into detail cuz it scares me...but drinking doesn't appeal to me. In any way. I mean honestly. I have this issue and I'm scared that some guy will take advangtage of me. It is just one of those things. I dunno...like the vibe I get from drunk people is sometimes really scary. You know? Like it just...you can't tell what they are going to do.
On a lighter note [i was depressing myself]. Ashley said we have something. Not Ashley and me...but you know...him and me. I'm pretty sure you know who/what/thing I'm talking about. yeah...I just feel it you know. I hope I don't scare him away with my scary ways...that would be hella scary. Cuz like he's great. I just can't stop thinking bout him...he is just great. Superb. <----And that is what it feels like to be in love.
You know...I think that I'm just one of those girls that never had the right life. I'm just really scared about everything. You know? Like I'm one of those girls that have never done anything in life, because I'm scared. I've never been drunk, because I can't drink. It was just one of those things. You know. It is just like: I think I have seen some of those things and then it just bothers me...and stuff...I dunno...on a lighter note I have a great story to share:
We began our Friday night ritual by watching a movie. We were pleasently [spelling] enjoying, "I Am Sam," when we heard sirens--followed by a loud speaker noise. We paused the movie, shut the tv off, and started looking out the window like aimless bored old lady gossipers with nothing better to do in their lives.
To our suprise, there is a cop car, well, more like a detective car with its lights on parked in front of the Gasper's house with a car in front of it. We perceded to watch until curiosity struck us. So being the morons that we are, we grab two blankets, each are dressed in snow boots and snow coats, wrapped tight in blankies, and we were off!
At first, we were on the porch, but perceided to the front shrub. When the first car came, we hid our faces thinking they could see us. But yet again, the blue berries and cherries were calling our names. We made our way to the front side lawn where the lawn meets the woods. [sparcely wooded dead tree area formely known as our "woods."] Again, we thought we could be seen, so we had to go in. Both of us were scared. We saw another car coming, and to our amusment it was yet another cop.
*Hollie hiding behind a tree*
*Ashley squating on the ground in a not so flattering position*
Hollie: CAR!!! *only not so loud because we were trying to hide from the P-to the-Olice*
Ashley: Pretend you're a dog! No I mean duck! No, I'm a TREE!
Hollie: NO! We're bushes!!!!
So now we're both laying on the ground huddled together to keep warm. Hollie is sitting on her hands to keep her butt from getting wet, and Ashley is laying in Hollie's lap. Nothing happens for about 15 min. and we decide to make our way back to the safeteness of our house.
*Us huddled on the ground*
Hollie: I think we should just sit here until somebody finds us.
We make a break for it running *well, duh, we didn't want the cops to see us* and Ashley:
*bend over running*
Ashley: "Dun, dun, dun dun, dun, dun, dun dun" [Mission Impossible theme]
Booyaakaa! We are now in the house. Sitting in the tub, masasing our feet.
Damn, we almost got caught by the cops! Well, uh, not really, but we like to think so! =)
*This has been a presentation of Hollie Jo and Ashley's Friday night ritual* [You will now be returned to your regular scheduled program]
Also: Remarks made by Holliejo
Ashley: what are you doing?
Hollie: thinking
Ashley: why
Hollie: because that's what I do
yes...I love you Ashley...I love you sooo much...I think that I may just love my layout as much...although I'm going to have to think about it. It really shows who I am...also it just...yeah. Anyway...no Stefan this isn't about you. But don't ever let my heart fall and shatter into a million pieces and I shall cry. God I miss you. Geez I must say this: I have no idea what I'm thinking. Must go and show the world what I really am. Even though I'm in the clothes I will fall asleep in and I have my pink blankie. Do you think my roomie will laugh at me when I bring my Pink blankie, glow-in-the-dark slippers w/"Princess", and my sleeping bag? Cuz yeah...this is hella cool. Must go do nothing. yes...nothing is going on...I think there is something outside so I'm trying to turn my head, but I'm addicted to the screen...quite sad.
Make Love, Not War
Holliejo
You love me and you know it. My past...being slowly revealed by my big mouth. Yeah...I know none of you know, because I hide it sooo well. I always lied. Seniors that read this: member when those guys were saying stuff bout me, it was all true. There are NO candidates willing to take on the wrath of Holliejo. I know this. HAHA. You love me.
I don't think that I'll ever end my blog. As long as they have it. I'm going to be on it. I just have to. There is nothing more than I like than my blog...well German chocolate..but that is love. You know...Stefan I would watch out I've heard of people marrying some crazy things...but I just might make it into the record books by marrying chocolate. Ha you love me. I think so. I find you very amusing. This is great. Oh my...I had Sabrina's glasses on and I was HOT. Yeah HOT. For once in my life I actually called myself HOT. This is great. I have so much fun doing nothing. Oh my do all y'all want to hear some of my problems. Well of course. Oh My this was like from Wed. But I no longer blog so yeah...I have this person let's call him: Fat Andrew. And well Fat Andrew decided to throw the ball in my face. What kind of ball? A basketball. I cried. And that night I was like: Stefan hated me, but he would never throw a ball in my face. Well...there was that one time...Just Joking. Ha I love it. Yeah...I'm really super excited. Stupid German is skiing. I hate him sometimes I wasn't thinking about him at all and then Ashley's like: Is Your German still Skiing in the German Alps? And I was like: NO DON'T DO THAT TO ME...I HAVE TO TAKE A TEST IN GEOMETRY AND I HADN'T THOUGHT ABOUT HIM OR THE CHOCOLATE FOR AT LEAST 10 MINUTES. Oh boy...I was angry. But, don't worry I zoned and finished my test with time to spare. HA you love me.
I haven't blogged in forever...which really doesn't bother me. But, yeah nothing much has gong on...which is kind of sad. I am sort of over this bloog. I think this may ture into my farewell sppech. *tear leaks out and runs down my cheek*. But, yes...the reasons being is that I no longer find a need for a blog. I just don't. YOu know? I don't why I just find it hard to do and stuff. I have my own journal now and this is good enough. You know...like I decided that maybe an online journal isn't good enough. I'm really sorry...I think that I'll try a lot harder to do my blog...but I can't say that I'm going to. THis is the end...I won't delete my blog...and people that read it..will get an email from me to see that they'll get to see my latest posts...until then toodles.
Oh…Stefan…sending you a letter via mail. Leaving Friday or Saturday.