When I think of you, I feel like I'm floating on air. You make me light headed and dizzy. You can make me high just by saying hey you! (cause that's what you always do) I seem to be thinking about you all the time. Baby boy you are soo damn fine! (sorry that was a song) But, for really now. You do something that others can't and I love you for that. You leave me speechless. Instead of talking you bring tears of joy to my eyes. You make me smile. I miss you so much, and I know that I can't have you. And deep down I wish that I didn't love you soo much, because it hurts not to have you. I dunno what we are gonna do about this, but you have no idea. Maybe it's better this way. Or maybe I'm gonna lose you, something like a butterfly. You try so hard to catch it, so when you do and you realize how beautiful it is, how much you want it...it flies away, never to return. You lost it forever. It's just a memory. Or maybe you'll see something like it and think of him. So, for me...I can't lose this one. At least that's what I think. You see, he's different than any boy I've ever known. I've never felt this way. I know what love is...or what I at least think it is. And this is it with so many other things built in. You have no idea. He's my best friend, but I love him soo much. He's great...and I love it. I don't compare other guys to him, because they would always lose. There's him...then there's everyone else. If I ever do get a boyfriend (which is a long shot, by the way...lol) they are gonna have to see that this boy is always gonna be here in my life...and to not feel threatened...much. I know that he'll be happy for me when I get one...because I'm happy that he has a girlfriend, but there's still a ping of jealously inside of me. He's great and I'm just happy to have him in my life, you know?? There's only one of him and I hope that I get that one in the long run. And I can only hope that he feels the same way about me. My heart is out on a limb and I'm trying to get it back, but no matter what...he's always gonna have some part of me now. Because that's what happens. He's got me hooked...
# posted by ojeilloh : 10:37 AM