This what I feel like, right now. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want to tell you anything. I don't want to hear it. I don't want you to tell me anything that I want to hear. I just want everything to go away. I just want you to leave. I want you out of my life faster than you could ever know. I don't want all of this, because then I get all sad and depressed I don't want to do anything. I just want to cry. I just want to give it all away. I just want you gone. I really do. Don't. Do. This. You Fucked Up My Life. I'm sick of always hearing sappy love songs on the radio. =) I just don't want to do this. I want it all to go away. Why did you do this to me? I'm really confused about everything. Not, so much anymore. I don't really care if Courtney hates you. Tonight she was nutreal. (spelling) she didn't do anything she wasn't supposed to. For once, she looked at it from the point of view from the both of us. So, you can go to hell for being mean to my friend. I don't care that she hates you. She's most likely has reason. What the fuck did you do to her? I'm really pissed at you all of a sudden. Thoughts pass through my head so fast and what not, that I get really overwhelmed quite quickly and it doesn't stop. The typing on my hands won't stop. and you can't make them stop. I just want to tell you that I'm sorry for everything. I shouldn't have told you all that I did. I should of just left it alone. You should have told me that you cared about me, but you don't really care about me as much as you think you do. I mean look at you. You had one of those typical High School Relationships, where everything you do makes you laugh and giggle and do you do it, because it seemed like the right thing to do at the time. You don't think about the people around you, what the fuck is up with that? I just wish I knew, because I don't. I wish I could understand why you think everything is okay, becasue it's not. It's not okay. Nothing is going to be okay with us. You have to understand that. I just want you to go away, because this isn't what I want. I want nothing to do with you. I just don't understand. Why did you do this to me? Why did you make me fall for you, only to realize there is a lot more under you than your stupid intelligence. There's a lot of really smart people, but there's a lot more people that can fake their smarts. And I happen to be one of them, but you just happen to be plain ol' stupid. I just don't understand why you did the things you thought you had to do. I just don't understand any of it. Why are you the way you are? I don't know, I'll prolly never know. And you know what, it's probably a hell of a lot better that way too. I don't know what to do with you. I just want to jump off a cliff and cry myself to sleep, because I realize that I fucked up really bad. I was the one that made the mistake of actually caring about you. What the hell is that shit? Why did I think that I needed all of this? Because, for once, I'm almost capable of taking care of myself and I don't need you to be a person that needs to take care of me. I don't need this. I have friends and family that are there for that reason. And I don't need a boy thinking that I need him. Because, I don't need you, and you may need me. But, I don't want to be the person that you need, just so you can stay in line. You'll be more than fine without me. Because, you'll get to lead your life how you want to, not how you think I'd want it. I've had enough of boys like you. I need a real boy, I need a man to take care of me now. You're just so stupid and you don't really realize that. I can lie through my teeth to you, and you don't realize it. How horrible is that? Pretty bad, but you could be doing the same thing to me. Only I won't be so hurt by it.