Why does it seem everyone always has this stupid positive outlook on life? Do you really have that outlook, or are you just trying to comfort me? It's strange, because I'm confused with everything. I just want to run into my bed and cry for days. I'm really worried, because now I want to do my homework, I want to be able to do it all and so much more, but it turns out the most I can do right now is try my hardest to take good notes in class; talk to people with the people I'm in class with...rape them for my book and hope for the best. I don't really feel well; it's like whenever I have to meet new people I get really stressed out and worried about them. Because, what if the people don't like me. What if I did something wrong? Then what? Should I just play it off or what? I worry too much about what other people think and even more about what I think about myself. It's strange, but I try to deal with it all. I'm just really worried about school right now, and I'm worried about so much more. I know why I'm all worried; but then again I also know that I should just go with the flow and hope and pray that this all works out. I just really need this loan, I really need all of this to work out and everything. I need to know that everything is going to be alright. I need to have my books, I need to get my gpa up, I need all of this and so much more, and I don't know what I'm doing or what I'm thinking or anything. I'm all worked up about everything. It's nice.