When everything in my eyes is beginning to look normal, that is when my family begins looking more strange by the second. There is nothing I want more right now than to go home and be with my family. There's nothing I want more than to hold Shawnna and be with her. Make sure nothing happens to her and makes sure she can understand everything that she is going through. I was like her when I was her age. I felt the same way that she did, and that has to be so hard. I never knew how much I meant to her, how much I help her. I wish that I would have had someone like that when I was her age. Someone that I could count on, someone there for me, but sadly I didn't, but I made it through everything that happened. So, now, I'm sitting here thinking about everything...and I'm wondering what I'm supposed to do with her, I'm not sure though, because...well I'm just not.