I'm just sitting here thinkinga bout everything and always wondering what is going through my head, everything changes and everything is so different without you. I don't know what is going on or anything, but iit's just really hard for me to sit here and think about everything. I'm not sure what she thinks or anything, I'm just tired, that's all. And I don't want to start beef. I'm not sure what she thinks of me, but I'm sure she thinks something. It's hard for me to think about everything and absorb it. How everything is changing and what not. I don't know. I just think about everything and what not, and I always get confused...like always and it sucks. because you have no idea how hard it is for me to straighten out my thoughts. I just wish I could...you know? Because then everything would be easier...