You make me feel whole again, you make me laugh and you make me cry, you make me think, and you do everything that I wish that I did, becaue of everything. I wish I didn't feel this way about you, but I swear I wish I could just know how good you are at kissing and how great is to be held by you, even if it doesn't mean anything. To fall for you is to want you. Which probably isn't in the best interest for me, but do I really care? No. Do you know that I want you, of course you do, because I see it in your eyes when you look at me, or at least when I'm thinking about you...you know it and I don't mind. I want to be with you for some reason and I know that I shouldn't want to be...because you do nothing but cause pain for others. And because of the fact that you don't care about me like that makes everything okay, because I know that I have nothing to worry about, because I know taht I can't get hurt by you. Which is the best thing in the world. I don't know why I like you so much. I just want to tell you, but why should I when I know you don't feel the same and right now you're really awesome and I love the relationship we have. It's great...so much better than what I have with my other guy friend for the moment. I dunno..anways. I just thought that someone ought to know that I totally love him! He's awesome...anways. I don't know...it's just like: meh. I dunno...

I want him. Damnit. Anyways, you have no idea how horrible you looked when you told me that you're friends decided that I was a "a bit too much" for you. That makes me laugh. beacuse I dunno...BECAUSE I'M NOT!! You can't complain in bed, and you don't complain when you're with me in general. Hell, you don't complain at all, and it's horrible. You just make me think about everything and why I did the things I did, I can't believe that I did. Why did I? Seriously?? That's the most horrible thing in the world for me to think about. I did stuff with you...I can't believe that. On top of all of this your friends met me a total!! of three times! How's that for judgement?? Seriously. They say that the first impression does everything for you...and I was quiet and told you I liked your shoes...that's my best first impression ever. Seriously, because everyone else gets the loud, annoying holliejo that's on crack!! So, how the fuck couldn't you love me!?!?! I'm confused...that's the most stupid thing in the world. You're supposed to love me, seriously. I'm confused, and pissed off at the world. I dunno...I give up. You're such a fucking dick lick.

What to do what to do. I want to be friends, seriously...that's the biggest bunch of shit I've ever heard in my life.