1. Everything is changing now, everything feels different now. I think something that I shouldn't think. I don't think I am, but if I am...shit. What the hell am I supposed to do? A sudden like whatever it is...I don't know...I should...but I'm scared...I'll wait...
2. I want him, like I've wanted him never before. Damnit. Seriously that's the one thing that I don't want...but I love the way he looks at me, like there's a hint of him being able to like me, or something, something that makes me feel better about myself, veruses just being with someone. I don't know...it's a really hard stare to deciefer, but that's fine, because I love every minute of it. Damn myself...I hate him...no that would be a complete lie, damn him to hell for making him like him, although I don't think I did that.

Fuck.