It's like nothing else matters after the few that get what they want are through getting what they want, so then it's all gone and no one cares anymore? Why can't it be that they care about everyone just as equally as everyone else. I'm not sure, but yeah...it just really bothers me. Like how Erica got me a journal and the 5th Harry Potter book in Paperback, because I need another set of them, because my old ones are all gross. Anyways, so yeah...the journal. I don't think any one else would have gotten me a journal, because I really don't think that they would have cared about something like that. I dunno. I mean that. I dunno...when someone like Erica does something for you, then it means something. She's basically my best friend and she's someone that I love being around more than anything. She's like a one in a million. She reminds me so much of Sabrina, 'cept Sabrina and I never got along like we do. People in this life are so amazing and so pure it's just awesome how everything changes and what not in a course of a second. I think that me and Erica will end up getting a lot closer than what we have been, because it just is the way the world works. Which doesn't bother me. It's amazing. I really mean that, how everything in my life has changed. I don't think I've changed, and if I have I'm not ready to admit that. Anyways...so yeah. I don't know. It's just amazing how everything changes and what not. I think that's my main goal in life, is to find out why I'm always changing and how I'm always changing, because I know that I'm always changing trying to fit some mold and push out something else in my life. But, the fact remains that the thing that never changes about me, is the fact that I'm always focused on change. Why in the world is someone like me so worried about change. I honestly have never understood it, it's like my biggest fear in life and my biggest everything. The one thing that I've always been scared to face, but I make it alright with it. I'm really confused by all of this, but then again, I'm not. It's just amazing. Thank you again Erica, because now not only did you give me an amazing gift, but now I'm on this amazing writing high. You have no idea how much that means to me, because I mean I haven't felt like writing this much in like forever. It's just amazing. I really have got to get my collection going. Because I really wanna read the harry potter books over again this winter, plus get a bunch of other books read. I haven't read in like forever, that can't be good. But, yes I'm gonna go find out if there are any new books that I must read.
thank you :)
holliejo