Okay, so here’s the information I’m providing for today. I have nothing much to talk about, but I guess I do have some stuff to talk about. I’ve decided that things have changed a lot, because I just don’t feel the same way; I’m really just highly confused with everything and I’m not sure why I am like that, but guess what?? I am. Anyways, I still like him and I’ve decided that I’m always going to like him, no matter what. He’s a great person and he’s super fun to be around, for so many reasons. I don’t think he likes me and that’s okay with me, I’ll just continue to like him, because I can?? I’m not really sure, anyways, so here’s the deal. It’s not as horrible as it has been for awhile, but it isn’t as good as it once was. So, anyways, I’m not sure what I’m exactly what I’m talking about, but since I can I will
Subject One: The Boy. Well, this is it. I like that boy. Yes Yes Yes. You already know this, but I just can’t stop talking about it. So, I’m telling my blog, because it’s so much easier to talk about it on my blog, because then no one has to know but me. And that’s a plus? Right? Right. So, I really don’t think he likes me, and that’s okay, because he never knew in the first place. So, this is a plus, because then I don’t have to worry about anything ever happening, nope nope nope! Horrah for holliejo she wins! =) Anyways, even though I wish that he knew that I like him, it’s better that he doesn’t, because everything gets really awkward for me and what not, because that’s just the way that it is. I mean that. I can’t fix it or anything; I just do it the way that it has to be done. So yeah, it’s not that good, because it kind of bothers that I can’t be with him. I wish that I could, but I know that I can’t, I don’t know. *Angry/Confused Face* So yeah, that’s my problem with guy problems! ugh! But, what can you do about it? Really nothing, I don’t think. =( But, I guess that I’ll be fine later, I mean there’s always other boys to like and what not, you know that as well as I do, I just wish that I could like and have this boy. That would be great. He’s super nice and is just great; everyone thinks so, just like me.
Subject Two: I have to simmer it down every once in awhile. I just have to make sure that at certain times I’m a lot calmer than other times, because when I’m not calm I get really hyperactive and what not and people really don’t like to be around me. But, you see I think about this, I know that the people that I’m around realize that they don’t like to be around me, and sometimes I wish that I didn’t have to be around them as much as I am. I mean I’m perfectly capable of not being around them ever. I mean I can find different people to hang out with, but I’m really really really really shy. I just don’t know why though. I’m not shy when I’m around people I know, maybe that is because I’m around them all the time, but I just wish that I didn’t have to be so shy around people that I don’t know. I mean I think that I might leave the wrong first impression. I wish my first impression was someone that was shy and fun to be around, someone that is smart, and caring. But, no that isn’t my first impression; my first impression is someone that comes off as a bitch, because her sandal breaks, well oops. I wish that I didn’t have to come off as that, but I do and that’s all the matters, but anyways, I don’t know. So, here’s the plan. I have to simmer down and act like blah around everyone else, because that’s what you have to do when you’re like me. You just can’t be yourself all the time, because people don’t like me when I’m like myself all the time. And it’s really not changing me; it’s more like just not being me for the time being. But then if you think about it? It’s really changing me for really. I mean if you can’t be yourself all the time, then you’re not really being yourself? But, if you decide that you can simmer yourself down, then you’ll be fine? Right. That’s what I should of thought all the other times. Hmm, this makes me think a lot more.
Subject Three: There isn’t a subject three. I think that I’m just going to post this and then find out what’s going on, cuz that’s sounds like funholliejo =)