You always will...no matter what you think or what you do. I'm the one that you think about when there's nothing else there, because I'm the one that made you that way. I'm the one that everything is effected by even if you just see me once before. If you pass me by the street and I smile you'll soon realize that I'm not the bitch that you think I am, but just the opposite. You love me for me not because I'm everyone else.

She wants to go home
But nobody's home
It's where she lies
Broken Inside
with no place to go
To dry her eyes
Broken inside
open your eyes
and look outside
find the reason why
you been rejected
and now you can't find
what you left behind
be strong now
to many problem
don't know where she belongs
where she belongs
she wants to go home
but nobody's home
it's where she lies
broken inside
no place to go
to dry her eyes
broken inside
her feelings she hides
her dreams she can't find

This was me...and me forever...it was how I was brought up and talked about. I was the girl that didn't have anything...and still don't, but I'm making it. I'm doing it without you. And I'm finally doing it better than you ever thought I could, because you aren't here bringing me down like you used to. You know what. I'm glad I left when I did. I don't know...I mean all of those things that we went through...all of those changes and what not...it's kinda weird...it's one of those things...I can't do this anymore...I really can't. I'm thinking about everything and what not...and it's kind of weird thinking about how everythign changes because of things. Anyway...so I'm going home again...this time for Thanksgiving...but it's going to be a little weird, because guess what? I have a full wonderful thing planned with my FAMILY! It seems that ever since I left everyone misses more than I would ever imagine. I mean it's okay. Because I really do miss them, but I mean it would be nice to do something with other people too. I mean I think there's that possibility that I will get to spend the day with Manda and Courtney on Friday b/c I dont' have anything planned for that day. But I still have to shop and stuff on Saturday or something...bc I need some things...I don't know. I'm highly confused.
Life is short you're capable.
holliejo :)