Now, after I thought that we were slowly moving towards something that actually meant something, you fucked it up. Wasn't me this time. Nope, not this time and you fucked it soo far up that you can't fix it. You can't make it better. Is it that hard that you can't call a simple seven digits?? I mean come on. I do it on a daily basis. I call Gram everyday! Every freaking day. You know this. You know. And you know that it is a local call, the only one that has to deal with the minutes is me. And you know I talk a lot, but it's free because me and Manda got m2m. So what now? Nothing! You need to call me and tell me, because I'm going to be so pissed. Are you still gonna sign the freaking xmas card with the "Ginger?" You better not, or I'm totally going to flip. You're a freaking fucking bitch. Why did this have to go down like this? Honestly? Why can't I go back and fix what I wanted to fix? Why can't I make it all better? I hate this. I really do. Why? You fucked up as much as I did by not fucking calling. You should have fucking called. A fucking simple call. Bitch. Mother fucking bitch. You are a horrible mother. Horrible. I always thought more of you than this. Why didn't you call? What the fuck? Honestly. You're a mother fucking whore. Bitch. Slut. Cunt. Horrible no good mother that never did a damn thing for me. Where did you get off listening to Evan? Did he tell you no? Or was it just some random thing, let's not tell my ONLY! fucking daughter about the dog she has had since she was 5 years old. What the fuck? Honestly. Just becuase I'm gone doesn't mean I don't know. Do you ever go into my old room and just look around. You have to feel me somehow. You let her go a long time ago, and you lost her. Was that your reason for not tell me? Because you know as well as I do, that I'm not coming back? That had to be it. I mean I love you more than anything in the world, but you're a no good slut. I hate you for everything you ever did to me. Why did you do all of that? Why did you have to hide it all for me. Or are you just waiting for a good time to tell me? I know that it has to be hard for you too, but come on. You better call me within the week. I mean it. I give in too easy, because you know that I love you deep down. Way deep down, it's Evan that doesn't let you through though. The one person that keeps me from loving you, because of all the horrible shit he put me through.