I hate this. I have stupid internet people that disconnect you when you use the internet too much...how gay is that?? Gay enough for me to be angry at them. Really angry...like killer angry. I'm listening to angry music to make it even worse. And consuming the best drink in the world: kool-aid. Cherry...but I did just make some tropical punch. God to I hate the phone thing. I wish they people would get the stupid busy thingy...but no that's not nice...and I get sick of getting disconnected!! rah!! but yeah...by the time I get back on ...he will be gone and I will be sad...but does my dysfunctional family care...what do you think?? That's a "no." Just wanted you to know...haha...the boy I like got a new gun...it's pretty and blue and I wanna lick it...but he said no...and that bothers me...a lot...you know...cuz I love that pretty blue and the way it is...okay soemthing else to talk about...I really should stay off the internet for like 2 days...but for some reason that only happens when and if I'm at Amanda's house. So...yeah I have no idea when that is gonna happen. Mabye it will reset itself at the end of the month. One can only hope..ya know? No I dont' really know...but my little cousins have nothing of importance to say so I wish they would just get off the damn phone. God they piss me off...a lot...I hate it...I'm in a really bad mood...I know why and I wish I didn't have to be like this...but I am.
I have to get my wisdom teeth done in like a week...I'm soo scared...wouldn't you be...yeah I thought soo. I dunno what I'm gonna do. If I get good drugs I'm gonna share with Courtney. haha...doubtful...I will hoard them all to myself...being in lala land for always and forever. haha...and then when I do get out of whatever crazed land I am in...I will most likely be cranky and I will not like that at all. Because my family will expect me to do whatever it was that I did before and I will be angered at this...I hate them sometimes. I mean come on. But, yes I have this strange urge to cont. to shake my leg. I have no idea why I'm doing this, but I am. I stopped. I got disconnected in like 7 minutes. How freaking fucken angry does that make me...tons. Lemme tell you. I hate it. I was online for 7 minutes and then get disconnected. Don't you think that the people that run the place would get tired of disconnecting me?? I would...cuz I couldn't do it...every 7-10 minutes until one or two in the morning...it's prolly a computer and it looks at me and says: gooooo bye bye bitch. Little does he know that I'm angry at him and I wanna just rip it's little mouse out and what not...and whatever else you can do to piss off a computer. Which prolly isn't anything because computer don't get pissed at you. Unless you count the stupid random messages they tell you all the damn time about just stuff...and then you click making everything all better...which in the long run I doubt you do. But, yeah.
I have nothing else of importance to talk about, but I usually do. Which is slighty strange. Oh yes. Let's talk about life. And how good it is for someone. You need life. def. of life: the daily doings, which include everything from breathing to talking to sleeping to emotions without life you do not exisit. I have know that some people would like it better if they did not have life, but I have something to tell you: do you think the people around you really think the same thing? I doubt it. Look how many people everyday do it. And then all of the people that it effects. You may think it is a way to get attention, but when you are really in that positon you have to think about it. You have to think is this the way to get what I'm looking for. How do I know, because people accused me of getting attention this way. But, the truth. I lived in hell and I'm not going back. But, you have so much more, you're just to damn blind to realize it. You know that? You have soo many friends and family that care. And you have someone that loves you more than you realize. I hate you for not looking at it that way. But whatever. You just keep thinking about all of those things and see how far you get in life. You won't get very far. I tried to help you I wanted you to know that. Really I did. But, you are just like me...you don't listen to anyone...which is fine, but little do you know that I started to listen to people and that' s how I got to where I am today. I don't care if you ever see this or you never talk to me again. You got my views and I gave up because you were an asshole and lied to me about a lot things. And most of all I hate you because you wanted to get right up there with my best friend. No one can do that. No matter who you are.
My internet blows harder than I do...and I blow pretty hard for only charging 10 bucks.
haha...I love it. I'm sorry I had to put that in there...I'm just like...yeah...I give good head and I'm cheap. You love me...and you know it...you're just too freaking scared to tell me. And that's okay...cuz I ain't going anywhere to quick.
# posted by ojeilloh : 9:57 PM