Okay...so I'm going to write a really good post about everything that has been going on right about now. I mean I'm starting to have some kind of life within what I thought was my own personal hell...but you all know I'm doing better than that...so anyway...so I'm supposed to go somewhere with someone on Sat. or Sunday...but I'm not sure if I will...and I'm supposed to talk to someone just about hanging out..and a friend lives in town...so I shall visit him...and well you know Courtney and I have to go and ho center...because that would be cool...and you know have to get a minor case of skin cancer from the sun...meaning I'm going swimming in Manda's pool this summer...but anyway...so I'm really happy about finding all of these really cool people this summer...but the only problem is that I found them after the fact that I graduated...not saying it was a bad thing or anything...but you know...

It is amazing how you can find things out about people that you never knew about them before. This happens to me a lot. No matter what you think; I still manage to put people into groups. And then you find out that they fit into their group, but oh so much more. And this is like the best thing. Because, well it just goes to so you that these people may have so much more to offer than what you see. And that can be a problem, because well...what if some person that is a stoner is like really smart...like genius smart and no one gives him a chance becuase he smokes pot. Hell? I don't see a problem with it...I just don't do it. Anyway...so all of these people...they are losing chances to become something...and just because some person decided to that they wanted them to fit into some group.

So...anyway...so I talked to Stefan for about five minutes and got a killer email. I feel so bad for him...because I mean I care so much about him...and I want to be really supportive...I know that I can do that...but I can never give words of encourgement. And that hurts me...because I want him to know I care...I care a lot.

I would like to take a moment to talk about my friend: Stefan. We've been through so much...so many highs and lows...but for some reason we both seemt to end up right where we used to be. Friends. I can't believe that after one year...I'm still talking to him. I mean that is just amazing. Anyway. I don't think that I've ever thank'd him for being there for me...and I mean I'm doing it publically right now...but privatley a little later ;)...no for really now...anyway...so he's really cool and what not...and he is going to go far...he doesn't think so...but I do...I think we are like the same person...just opposite sex...maybe...but anyway...we both got this: we're nothing...and then the both of us are like: no...you got something...you're really smart and then it just conts. like that forever...and what we need to realize is that we both are really smart, caring, loving people. It is amazing how people, without knowing it, can affect your life in so many ways. I mean...he's told me so many times that I can do anything...and what not...he told me to go for my biggest dreams...that everything is going to be okay..and I believe him...I really do...it took me forever to realize that everything is going to be okay...but I think he was one of the first people that really showed me that I could do it. And that gets a thank you...so Thank You Stefan...for Everything...I mean you helped me soo much. :D Always here babe.

So...after that wonderful heartfelt moment...I should prolly go thank him...but he's getting on later...but I'll still do it...I hope this makes him feel better...becuase I don't know what else to do. I mean I hate seeing people hurt...becuase you don't know how to comfort them when you are 3000 miles away. It bothers me...I mean the people I care about soo much...I hate to see them hurting in any kind of way.

Okay...so that's my huge post. And I've had so much to talk about...but I'm running out...it's all because I'm talking to someone online...curse online messengers...I take that back...but yeah...they allow for great times sometimes...and just anything and everything can happen.

Okay...so I'm sitting here thinking about everything...how much I miss everyone...and what not...and I'm talking about my little sisters and what not...and they've done so much for me...I mean they make everything worthwhile...just to hear my brothers say: this weekend willow...blah blah...I dunno...I mean that just makes me feel awesome...but anyway...I dunno what else to talk about...just know all of these things make me happy...Going to send Stefan another email. :D

Later Taters
holliejo

Hollie's Thought of the Day:
"Haven't done this in forever...felt it was time to get back in the swing of things"