That's how I feel right about now...I'm here for another day...and another day is too long...I'm not taking any kids to the pool that would drive me nuts rahfoeaoirea....that's right...more nuts than I already am...do yes that's a lot...anyway...so I'm siting here this morning and my fucken computer has shit on it that's bad...I mean we have Norton...but from what I heard...Norton sucks...and then I got this message: if you can see this...you're computer's fucked...ok not that bad...but close...and so I went and downloaded some Spyware...I suppose everything should be okay...but I'm not sure...I mean...I don't usually accept people's shit...and so I'm going to STOP...becuase it can't be good...I mean anyway...so this spyware seems to be doing good...and Norton comes on every night at 11 pm so that is good for me...I dunno though...I mean I wish there was more that I could know...I should of took up hacking...yeah...I know that would be bad...but at least...I can just go and download free Spyware...and hope that everything gets to be better...this calls for someone with smarts...I know that Tom has a handle on these things...so I'm hoping that he gets on soon...but I dunno...

So...anyway...so I mean everything other than that is going great...I feel bad for not knowing my classes and shit...I'll go to the library tommorow? night to find some classes..becuase that is what I have to do...because otherwise I won't know a lick about what the fuck I'm supposed to do...I have to remember the map...for Platteville...but anyway...so I'm really excited about that...I and then I get to talk to Manda on the phone tomorrow night too...that totally rocks...

Anyway...so I mean I was thinking last night...it is amazing how I just seem to read and read and read and read...I never knew how much I liked to read...it just sorta happened...I wonder what day it is...anyway...so I mean I just love it...reading is great...that is like one of the best things I have...reading a book a day...I mean it doesn't keep the eye doctors away...

Anyway...I think I'll do fine in college...because for some reason 4-6 hours of sleep a day...and doing fine...it's really scary to think about...becuase I mean I dunno why I just never relaly thought I could do it before...but lately I've been busy...taking care of kids...doing household things...and sitting on my ass...and the first two are how I'm going to be...in college...not those things...but you know staying active...and anyway...I think I'll do fine...just thinking about everything...and what not...seeing that going down to Platteville is just two days away...I mean come on...I'd be a little paranoid...but whatever...

Last night I was talking to this guy...and he is really cool...I mean totally awesome...like great Boyfriend material...only he hides everything...he shot me...anyway...I mean if was as tiny as him...and had a car...I would ask him on a date...I mean he would say no...but it would be worth it...becuase he's amazing...he's smart...I dunno...I think about everthing and what not and it is great how many people have skill that you don't know about...I mean this boy...he's like everyone else in our school...but he's nice too...that has to count for something don't you think?? Anyway...so I was talking to this guy and he's everything I wish I could be...becasue he just lives to live...and he takes it one day at a time...and me I'm always planning things...always...I mean it is just something...and he's really nice...like I was going to tell him something...and then I'm like nevermind...and he's like no...keep going...and so I told him...and he told me he he isn't mean...and deep down I know he isn't...but you can't help but think...maybe a little bit...I dunno though...he's prutty cool!!

O O O O...I might get to drive my grandpa's truck...oh man baby...that truck is hot...umm...crew cab?? it is a four door...charcoal grey with metallic in 2500HD...yes folks it's a chevy...hahah...great trucks

Anyway...so my computer is functioning properly...but I have nothing else to post about..but I should...

I may be going paintballing this weekend! hahah...that is so much fun you have no idea...I mean it's great...I'll have to talk to Manda and find out...damn...I need to get balls and shit...I wonder if Alex ordered me any...I doubt it...and I doubt I'll go :( that breaks my heart...becuae I really like it...and the guys really like it when me and Manda are there...I mean I don't mind getting shot and what not...I dunno though...I'd be really warm...yuck...and turn into SMELLY GURL...but anyway...I dunno...I love paintball...damnit...I really wanted to go...

Anyway...I dunno...I really don't have anything else to do...and that sucks...I mean I want to talk...but have nothing to talk about...damn again...oh well...I think that I'm out...bye

later taters
holliejo

Hollie's Thought of the Day:
"These geeks don't even know the name of my band/but there all on me like they want to hold hands/Cuz wants they blow you know that'll be quick/All because I like to suck dick"