I really don't like the new blogger...yeah it's official I really don't...I can't believe that this is the font that I am stuck with...I mean come on...this is like the worse thing ever...it looks really cool but the fact that the font that you write is like: yuck that is the thing that bothers me...I dunno...it is more for the more of a google users...and it bothers me...I like to blog and what not and there is nothing more that I liked more than the old format...that rocked...I mean I really like the whole 1200321324 templates...but other than that...nothing about this thing rocks...it takes me like 146 hours to publish something and that drives me nuts...

Anyway. Okay...on to something more...well I'm glad that everyone feels that way about me and what not...thanks Courtney...I understand your love for Tom...and what not...but okay...sending me to the back burner and what not...well that just bothers me...I mean I understand that and whatnot...but just saying that and stuff...bothers the living hell out of me...you of all people...yes I thought you understood too..but yeah...have you ever heard the saying: Bros before Hos?? I mean not that I'm your bro and Tom's a ho...but I mean for really?? I mean just come on and think for a second...I give up...right now.

Okay...on to something else...have you ever had those little subtle messages you hope no one finds out...well...I'm a friend of this gurl..and I got her message loud and clear...I mean congrats for you not getting attached and what not...but you are...and I've asked...and he's not interested...I'm not telling...but I doubt any of you read my blog enough to understand anything.

On to something more also...I've changed and what not...and so everything that I've done has changed...I've become more friendly to the juniors and what not...I dunno...I've just changed and what not a lot over the last 3 months...some things that are good and other things that are bad...I dunno this is me now...and that's all. I mean let's be real for a second...through everything me getting away has been almost the only postive thing through it all...that means that when I leave this hell...as I like to call it...everything will be alright for me...everyting and anything...that means there is a sporting good chance that I won't want to come back...and that is almost fine with me...I mean that is just something that everyone will have to face.

Everything has changed and what not...and that's good for me. But, after I leave everyhting will get better for me and the other memebers of my family...my brothers are most likely getting college paid for them...which means they will prolly get a car too...which for them rocks...for me that sucks because it goes to show that my life as it was a while back sucked and it was a living hell...yes I did deserve some things that happened to me...but that didn't mean you had to cut me off from everything you had...I mean come on...I have to some how come up with money for school...and you guys are making money and that sucks becasue I really do need money...and I've never made money in my life for a second...but anyway...that sucks because I really don't want you to take the money I need away from me...I don't think the govt. will realize that you are not ever going to talk to me again and with that I will recieve no income from you what so ever...so basically put I'm screwed...no one else in the world knows exactly what I'm going through...even though many pretend I do...I dunno...I hate you more than anything in the world...and you're my mom.

Anyway...on to something new...I hate some people that think they are funny and stupid and stuff...I mean I've grown up and what not...but come on...you'll suck you really do...grow up an become something...there is almost no way in hell that you are giong to make it...quit staring at my boobs...anyway...sorry about that...this is for really...I can't believe everything our class thinks and what not...and they think they are like top shit and everything...and then next year they are all going to be fighting for some bottom of the barrel job...I should know...I'm going to be one of them...but whatever...I'm sure that I'll be fine one day...and when that one day comes...I'm going to smile and then die...because...well yeah...just because.