So I'm chillin in the LMC doing nothing...imagine that...but anyway...I'm really angry about everything and what not about this boy that doesn't deserve his grade because he really doesn't work for them and it pisses me off...oh Mr.Donahoe I think that you should do something about it...I really do...I dunno it pisses me off that he can get away with all of that stuff...oh man

but anyway...so I'm doing nothing...I only got six of the ten problems done on my Geometry test and that really sucked...but I dunno...I was really pissed off about that...I dunno...it just really bothered me...I dunno I mean I knew that I wouldn't be able to get them no matter what...that is unless the test was just given to me and I could get the answers...but you know that is kinda hard to do...but yeah...and on top of that...well if you must know: I emailed the stupid German boy again...yes I did...aren't you pissed at me...yes I'm over him...and of course madly happy about that one boy that smells good and wears black shoes...but other than that...he seemed that he was sorry...but I kinda thought about it and was like does he really mean it...or is he just playing you know?? Cuz you never know...I didn't apologize and he knows that I won't and what not...so that rocks for me...but other than that...I dunno...he said that he really misses me and what not...and even though when we talked on the phone...which he usually doesn't like...he really liked talking to me...so that really rocks...I dunno...I just dunno...I mean there is a good chance that nothing will come from the "relationship" we have...I mean we are friends and that is it...there is nothing else there...there is never going to be nothing else there...and I think now we finally both realize that...and that really rocks for me and him...but the reason why I did it was because of the fact that I thought that it was important for him to know that I did care about him...and that he should know the great things that are going on in my life...it is like a one in a million chance to be this close with someone half way across the ocean you know?? It just feels right...and what not you know??

My goal is to at least 301 posts by the end of the year...but anyway...it is kinda amazing how the year just seems to keep on going faster and faster like there is no kind of time barrier controlling what is going on in life...

but for really now...I find it very offensive when somebody is doing a speech for graduation with pancakes being something to talk about...that is absolutley horrible...but anyway...I feel kind of bad about not doing a speech you know...

I feel that without her he would of done it a long time ago...he hurts...and that is one thing I didn't see and that hurts...but it is amazing how well people hide pain...I dunno how to say it anyway else...you know...she is one of the strongest people I know and for her to always be by his side is amazing...I used to think that there relationship was crap on a stick...with all the PDA...and now I look and realize that there was a reason for all that...she saw past the face and looked at all the pain that he has...and she is going her damnest to make it better...but no matter what he is going to have to realize that he has to make it better...no cutting...no meds...no nothing is going to make it better...nothing...you just have to let go and try to move on...I dunno how big of a thing it is...but I know that you are going to have to try really hard to get where you need to be...it will take years and years of pain to be happy for many more...you can't stop it and you know it...I have no idea why he is doing this or what is going to make him stop...but I believe that she is a strong individaul and with support from friends and family I hope that he'll be okay...but it's going to be hard.

Anyway...I just thought that you all should know about everything and what not...cuz you're my friends and you all read this happily.