My goal is to at least 301 posts by the end of the year...but anyway...it is kinda amazing how the year just seems to keep on going faster and faster like there is no kind of time barrier controlling what is going on in life...

but for really now...I find it very offensive when somebody is doing a speech for graduation with pancakes being something to talk about...that is absolutley horrible...but anyway...I feel kind of bad about not doing a speech you know...

I feel that without her he would of done it a long time ago...he hurts...and that is one thing I didn't see and that hurts...but it is amazing how well people hide pain...I dunno how to say it anyway else...you know...she is one of the strongest people I know and for her to always be by his side is amazing...I used to think that there relationship was crap on a stick...with all the PDA...and now I look and realize that there was a reason for all that...she saw past the face and looked at all the pain that he has...and she is going her damnest to make it better...but no matter what he is going to have to realize that he has to make it better...no cutting...no meds...no nothing is going to make it better...nothing...you just have to let go and try to move on...I dunno how big of a thing it is...but I know that you are going to have to try really hard to get where you need to be...it will take years and years of pain to be happy for many more...you can't stop it and you know it...I have no idea why he is doing this or what is going to make him stop...but I believe that she is a strong individaul and with support from friends and family I hope that he'll be okay...but it's going to be hard.