Just thinking...imagine that...I really am thinking...about School and what not...I don't mean like highschool or anything...I mean I'm talking full on college...2805.36 that's how much money I'm going to need in the next three months...I mean I'm sure that I'll be able to get it and all...but HOLY JUNK...oh well...I'm sure everything will be all right one day...I really think so...but oh well...ok so I'm just really thinking about everything...but yeah...okay...so I'm just like hmm....I dunno. But, yeah...I'm just thinking...about everything...but yeah...okay....so...yeah...but okay...so you'll all really want to know: I told him...yeah you'll know that...but now he really doesn't talk to me...which totally freaks me out...I don't need that...he asked me if I passed my Geo. test...but I mean that really doesn't mean anything...umm...during art he didn't even look at me once...or maybe I'm the one totally freaking out...I dunno...but I tell you what...my whole sensing thing: i don't have it. I don't think he likes/liked me ever. So, yeah...that really sucked...but oh well...at least I have that off my chest....okay...so now I have this serious problem...the more I think about it...the more I freak the freak out...okay...because Stefan is coming back NEXT FREAKING WEEKEND and that is really scary because I don't rightly want to see him...I really don't. I don't...he just I dunno. I just thought that maybe just maybe everything will be fine...but now that I think about it...nothing is going to be okay..nothing at all...which is almost fine with me...I'm just a failure at the whole male thing...I just am...there is nothing in life that I'm good at...well maybe history...which I totally rock at...which is the only thing that I seriously think about...but yeah...now waht? There is nothing in my life right now that is going on...I mean I dunno.