Just thinking...I dunno. I really don't. I don't think anything will come between me and that one dude. And while were at it...me and Scott are going to get it on! =) Not like that...no...like this: One day me and him are going to have a eating contest...yeah...where I try and kick his ass! Not going to happen, but I'll try hard. Like we were talking about it and it turns out he can eat a lot! I mean I already knew that...but I figured not as much as me. I mean I think I could eat like 20 meatballs and like 2-3 plates of spaggietti to go with it! Yeah! I'm supposed to get this paper for mass media...be filing aid papers for school and tons of other things...but all I can think of is why are you giving me the cold shoulder. Oh...wait...could it be because some person that said they wouldn't say anything did?? Oh well..truth be told...I am. I really am. I mean you're a great friend and all...but you are just changing and what not...and I am to. And I really don't have time right now for that. I mean I have tons of time...just no time to worry about you and your little man thing. Oh well! That's the truth. And also...I could careless if you know now or later...cuz the truth is I'll prolly tell you! I really mean it. I mean you just have something going with you and I really don't want to be part of that. Okay? And no I'm not using my "incident" as an excuse. Cuz the fact is...it is over and it is done. Oh well...shit happens. And who cares. Honestly...I'm fine.

Okay?? Anyways. I've been thinking about you and stuff. And lately I haven't been missing you as much as usaul...which is weird. What would you do if I told you I won a trip to Germany?? Cuz I didn't. But...no really what would you do if I took a year off from school?? Huh?? Would you be disappointed?? Or even if I went to Center?? Oh God! I hope I don't end up at Center. Some people are like: "Oh I could totally see you take a year off...cuz you're smart and all and you have the junk to get where you want to go." Well...honestly...I dunno if I do. Cuz like right now. I just don't want anything to do with anything. And that's the truth. Kinda scary! I dunno just really thinking about everything.

It is kinda amazing to see your "friend" being not so "friendly" cuz that is how you are. And I ever catch you talking shit about me I'm going to give you a piece of my mind because that is what you deserve. I don't care that I have "fits" okay?? If you had my not so perfect family I'm sure you would have "fits" too! I can't help it that you have problems with your family and that you just want to "be yourself" cuz honestly you were for about 4 months and then you slipped back into their grasp. They have you like you wouldn't believe. Hell you sport sneakers now! Ha. Changed: yes. Yourself: no.

Haha. That was for you. You know...I get really sick of my class pretending to like me. You guys don't have to be nice. It is like you choose to be nice. I choose to be mean. Why don't you??

Later Taters Must Do Mass Media!
Holliejo