Okay..in Pysch we are learning about drugs and what not. Okay...so what is the problem with that you ask? Well...I get really sick of people/teachers telling us what is wrong with everything. Okay?? I get sick of hearing all of the bad things that happen to people that smoke and the people that are acholics [spelled wrong]!!! I just get sick of everything because my parents are. Okay? My parents are horrible. The teachers just get up there and say all of these things. I can't deal with it. I can't deal with the fact that my parents are wasting their lives away faster and faster everday. I can't. That's why I can't deal with that. I just can't. Why doesn't anyone understand that. They have so many problems here. Why can't people understand that this school isn't a picture perfect place. People put on fronts people pretend to be happy, people pretend to fit in. And the few that do fit in are nothing more than wet prats that don't deserve a thing. Half of the kids in my class are getting their college paid for...I don't, and I have never had a job in my life. If anything I'm one of the luckiest girls in my class, but after all this I bet I'm one of the girls that come crawling back and flunk out of school because I don't know any better. It is sad that I know what will happen to me. I will be just like my parents and there is nothing that will be done about it. I just know it. Nothing. I told my mom that something was wrong with me, she forgot because she was drunk. I yell at Evan cuz he tells me things that I don't like, then he says sorry, cuz he was drunk. I was never hit, I was just mentally abused until I couldn't take it anymore. I can't deal with psych. That is why. I can't deal with things that have to affect me in a negative way. I just can't. I don't thing anyone will understand how everything will work with me. I'm in homeroom.

later
holliejo

Oh...and someone is telling me America CAN'T do anything we want, but we will...that is what we are. No matter what happens. That is what History shows no matter what.