So...I've official crawled back to where I wasn't supposed to...but I think that in the long run I'll be fine. Hahaha! I'm so very angry...oh I have a new song that I really like. It is by Tupac and Biggy it is called: Runnin' I dunno I really kind of like it:
Why am I fighting to live if I'm just living to fight
Why am I trying to see when there ain nothin in site
Why am I trying to give when noone gives me a try
Why am I dying to live if I'm just living to die
That is the chorus...I really like it. And I know that he
may be "dead" to some, but I don't really think so. I dunno...I just don't really think so.
My Horoscope:
Perhaps you'll notice a bit of weariness today, dear Leo. Of course, you have been much more active than usual for the past few weeks. You've been meeting new people, having new experiences, attending meetings and perhaps even taking short trips. In the long run, will any of it further your goals? That's the question you may have to answer for yourself today.
I dunno what it means yet, but I'll try to figure it out. I don't really think that I will delete my blog...I just don't see the sense in it.
Okay..so I'm really quite paranoid right now. Okay... I have a seriously fucked up relationship...and I don't know what the hell to do...one min. I don't need you the next I do. What the hell am I supposed to do???????? OH YOU MAKE IT SOOOOOO DIFFUICULT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [spelled wrong] Well, I've just come up with this plan...I'm going to take it a day at a time...and just find out what happens from there...cuz even I dunno what to do...and I'm sure he doesn't either. Boy...yesterday was a shitty sunny day...but now it is starting to look up. I really think so.
Okay...so I just want all of my friends to know...I'm really going to need some mental support because I don't know what is going to happen with me and him. Okay? And just be ready for some serve mood swings, but I won't be mean to you [I promise]
Look at the time??? Oh my is it really German time? Oh I rightly do think so. [It is really on 9 in the morning]
Later Taters
holliejo
Hollie's Thought of the Day:
"If he was here I would kick him in the shins one minute and say sorry the next."
# posted by ojeilloh : 4:50 PM