I just want everyone to know I'm not a dyke...it is just a topic of conversation, but yes..one word to cover today's topic: DRAMA Yes I know a simple word...but my friend let's call her: Nicole...well she is a no good 2-bit slut and needs to be put in some kind of coma. I'm for real...and if I had bigger balls I would do it myself. I don't know though...that isn't half of the stuff I want to discuss.

I would like to discuss guys...
1) There are to many of them
2) They confuse me
3) They make me wonder if they really care about me
4) I don't know what to do with them
5) They make me laugh
6) I don't know anything else...so I'm going to cont. with my wonderful explatanation

Okay...so I kinda like this guy and he is like I don't know how to explain it...and then their is this other one and I can't explain that and I just can't explain anything that I do with guys...I mean I love guys so much and want to be with one...but can't cuz I can't tell them that I feel for them and stuff...you know? OK...maybe you don't maybe you do...but I think I just need to take a time out and think of all the stuff that is going on and take that into prespective. Okay so not much is going on to put into prespective...so I'm thinking this: Do I really need a guy? And my brain goes: Hollie...what happened the last time you were with a guy? You got in real deep trouble, your grades went to hell, and so did you..." But my heart is like: "Hollie if you can get a guy...then you would have someone to care about you all the time and stuff...and you could get all the special things that go with a relationship" And then when you put the two together all everything comes out and you just want to scream cuz you don't know what to do.

So...that was the most confusing thing I ever wrote.....you know...cuz it is hard to think about all that stuffa and stuff...so I might go and do nothing now for a little bit and be back a little later to forfill my thoughts and stuff

Hollie's Thought:
"God...right now a something would be great" It is a guy and his named is going to be disclosed