Why? That is just a word that I use so much in my life..but the problem is that I'm using it more and more..and lately it has been getting scary. I mean a guy that I never talked with very much..is now the guy I would love to spend a lot of time with. It is kind of scary..you know..cuz he tells you he loves you and you want to know what kind of love..and you don't know..cuz you love him in so many ways.

A lot of people know who I'm talking about (My LOYAL readers) but yes. I'm sorry it had to end up this way. I mean I want to be able to see him again.

I know that everyday more and more people are reading my blog to cheer them up. I don't know if I cheer them up..but I want to help them into me. (I want them to see the real me) Many people don't see the real me and that is sad. I don't want people to fall in love with the fake me. That is what I'm scared that one person has done...I mean...I know he misses me and loves me..but I love him..I don't know how I love him..but I do. And I just want him to know that I do care for him and stuff..boy this is one of the most confusing things I have done in a long time.

Okay...new subeject. (Sorry I just dropped mine into lala land) I don't remeber what I was going to go on about now? I wonder what other people put on their blog? Well..on mine..I love my blog..Ashley and I were talking about that last night and it is like you have to love your blog..because you watch it grow and become something..I was going to say someone..but really it could...cuz it turns into me.

Guess What? I'm not going to be some hyper active crazy loony anymore..but instead what is calling on the inside to come out.

I don't know anymore..so I must go now and make a new one for today.