I don't fit in and I know it. I mean I wander during lunch and get on everyone's nerves. I know I do...so I don't know what I'm going to do about it. You know I would like to move my blog...cuz many feelings are coming out and I don't want everyone to know them. I don't know...I'm really scared that my horoscope is coming true it was something like "if you're full of yourself you are going to lose friends." and well I feel like I'm losing friends...so if I don't come over to see you you'll know why. You know..I don't know what I feel and what I write is something that just comes to me...it isn't like I think greatly about what I do in my blog...it just comes to me and rolls off my fingers in a great way. You know...I wish I wasn't so scared to confront people or tell someone I like them. But in a way I wasn't supposed to cuz he is having a bad day, and me asking him would make it even worse. You know having a big mouth gets me in predictaments. I mean I think everyone knows that I like this guy...accept him (I don't know if that was the correct usage...but oh well...it isn't like this is school work or something.) I feel bad...I want to cry and be homing aiding Herbert cuz he is dying and I'm going to cry if he does...I don't know what to do...I have no one to talk too anymore..cuz I don't trust anyone..maybe I'll just cry and get more sick and tell my cat Romeo everything and he will understand everything.

Hollie's thought:
"She wants to be gone"